I am sorry that you are struggling right now.  Please take a deep breath.  Have you considered professional counseling or do you go to a support group for parental grief.  Both of those can help wonders.  I was never angry at God--I just try to find the positives out of the situation and look for healthy ways to keep my baby girl Lily's memory alive.  Please seek help from people who are equipped to help you.  There is nothing shameful about asking for help---Lord knows I have done it many of times.

 

Ronissa