I understand your hesitation to open the boxes of her things. I had
a really hard time boxing up Logan's things, and it took me a few
months after we moved here to unpack them again (I finally got it
through my head that if I didn't I'd put something else in the
nursery dresser and then would be in a real big pickle when I did
need to unpack some of the things. I made quite a few blankets for
Logan while I was pregant, so it helps me to just from time to time
pull them out and look at them.

Each person copes differently - don't let anyone tell you you are not
coping correctly.

We were talking about our upcoming wedding last night and I just
started to sob - we had planned to get married holding our son.
It'll be a happy and sad day at the same time.


--- In anencephaly@yahoogroups.com, "rrrschaefer" <rrrschaefer@...>
wrote:
>
> I was taking Nexium from August until the end of December 2004 when
I found out I was
> pregnant. I've heard that PPIs like Nexium can cause the body to
not absorb b12 and
> folate. I think it was October 2004 when there were articles that
came out claiming that
> PPIs block the absorption of b12. I'm pretty sure the warning and
cautions for Nexium
> have not been updated to have a stronger caution for women who are
pregnant or may
> become pregnant. It apparently doesn't affect vitamin supplements
only those that are
> naturally consumed in food. The lack of acid prevents the
appropriate breakdown of the
> food so the vitamins are not released.
> I have been trying to find out more about this but haven't had a
great deal of success. I
> just am piecing together different articles that have accused
Nexium of causing these
> vitamin deficiencies.
>
> None of us want to believe that it is genetic. We can't change or
control that, so we look
> for outside causes that we can control. But, all of this doesn't
change or make our losses
> any easier to deal with.
>
> I have a healthy baby on the way... at least a baby that doesn't
have anencephaly or spina
> bifida. I keep thinking something else will go wrong or be wrong
with the baby. I bought
> baby clothes for Lyna (stillborn at 38 wks Sept 3, 2005) last
summer because it made me
> feel better and I could use them again in the future. I can't open
the storage box and take
> the things out that were specifically hers to get to the baby
clothes. I think all of this is
> normal, but it's hard to work through.
>