Marie,
Looking back through the messages I found this one. I have to say I
fill the same way. You see my birthday is April 2 and my son was born
on March 27. That is only about 5 or 6 days before my birthday. I
know this is going to be a hard thing to handle and it has been. Now
I find out that I am pregnet again and I am due on April 18. I pray
that this one DOES NOT come on March 27. What is bad is my due date
with Leo was Aug. 11 on Aug. 12 is when I took the home pregnetcey
test and found out that I was pregnet again. That was a bitter sweet
day. I to think about what my son would be like today what he would
be doing what sound that he would be making. It makes me smile
thinking that he is up in heaven playing with his new best
friend/cousin Trail.

Leo's mom, Trail's aunt, and soon to be mom again Molly















--- In anencephaly@yahoogroups.com, "Marie Blair"
<peaches03292000@y...> wrote:
> Hello everyone.  I just thought I would send a little post.  I did
> not get to post yesterday but yesterday was July 28. July 28, 2003
> was my due date with Brianna.  Well I induced back in March of that
> year (still mixed feelings on this).  Oh how I wish I was planning
a
> birthday party for a little girl turning 2. (ok I just unexpectedly
> teard up) *choke*  July 31 is my birthday.  When I first found out
> my due date I remember saying "oh that wouold really suck if I was
> in labor on my birthday."  Now I would give anything to be sharing
> my birthday with my daughter.  How can someone be so emototionally
> attached to someone they barely know and only seen for such a short
> time----only a mother.  I feel so empty inside and I think I will
> bare that feeling everyday for the rest of my life.  I have not
ever
> really made a big deal about my birthday but as anyone I like to
> acknowledge my day.  When my birthday rolled around in 2003 my mil
> wanted to have a get together for me and practically begged me.  I
> stood my ground and told her that I could not do it especially that
> year. 
>
> I cant find any other words at the
moment............................
> .................
>
> I celebrate her birthday the day she was born(March 17) but I cant
> stand the fact that she is supposed to be here with me right now
> telling me all about her birthday party. 
>
> Well, I sit here now with a smile on my face wanting to tear up
> again but I just keep picturing how she would look and I cant help
> but smile.
>
> Marie