My name is Melissa. On March 21, 2005 my water broke and I
delivered a child with anencephaly. I have had the hardest time
dealing with this because I have a son with a cephalic disorder. I
am only 23 years old and I didn't want to give up having children,
but after researching neural tube disorders I am terrified. I was
told at the hospital that I had a little boy and for almost two
weeks I mourned what a little boy would have brought to my life.
Just recently I was told that they did a path report stating that
internal organs were female. I have had to mourn twice because of
that mistake. Maybe that's why I'm having such trouble dealing with
this. I had to reprocess all of the paperwork with the funeral
home, cemetary, city coroner, and personal records. I am interested
in knowing if this has ever happened to anyone else. I lost a twin
with my daughter, my son has physical disorders (plural) I lost a
pregnancy after that, and then a child with anencephaly. I almost
feel that it would be selfish to ever try again. Why put another
human life through that in order to serve my need to have another
child? I don't know what to think.
Anyone can write me at myltlelily@....

thanks for listening
melissa