Hi,

I just recently had a son his name was Nicholas. I had him December
12th 2004, I was 16 1/2 weeks. This is the second time I've lost a
child, my first I was having twins and I lost them in a miscarriage,
I was only 2 months when I lost them so I don't know if the were
boys, girls and boy and girl, but I wish i could have so i could of
named them. I don't have any children, and I'm 17. The hardest thing
for me is people saying your young you'll have other children, like
you'll replace them, and I can't their my babies. I also had a
funeral for him the 16th, I go see him all the time, and just cry.
most people think when I say my age that I;m just some slut
teenagers who didn;t care, and that hurts, I've been with the same
guy through all of this, hes my only boyfriend, for 1st kiss hes my
first and only everything, but I don't think I need to explain that
to people I don't know. If there is any one out there who knows what
I;m going through, email me.

Love Always,

Ashley