Angel's mom

 

     I can only imagine how you feel. My daughter is 5 and just started school. It is very cute. But My son died this year. He had anencephaly and was born still June 10th. It was awfull. I only held him for a few minutes because of all of the meds. I didn't really understand what his little life and death has done to me. I feel like part of me left with him, Like I am no longer whole and I am just kinda dangling. I function because I have to but sometimes I wish that I didin't have to get up in the moring. I would have given anything for my Jacob to be born alive and to live a strong happy life with his brother and sister but that cannot happen and it is taring my whole life apart. I am hoping that next year will hold better things for me and my family, but this year we have had alot of disapointment. I hope that one day there will be someway to keep this from happeneing to our little babies but untell then just remember that we have our own personal angels. I hope that this site helps you. I know that it helps me. When I get really sad or angry at the world I get in here and read and laugh and cry. But it helps. Hoping that it gets better or easier Jami~Jacob's mommy