Hi, I am new to this site, but I know exactly how you are feeling. I
am diagnosed with Bipolar I, and it gets very hard to get myself
going some days. I too have a problem with trying to take care of
myself, but have been doing much better at it. I still have problems
with spending money I don't have at times, I really got myself into a
bind. I have been in therapy for about 13 years I believe, and this
past year I have been attending DBT(Dialectical Behaviour Therapy)
sessions, I did not believe it would even help someone as bad off as
I was, but after being in it a year, I have noticed a great change
and others have noticed also, I am able to control my impulses better
and it teaches skills to use in many different situations, also I
have met others in the group with the same diagnosis and we can
support one another. You may want to check into this, it has been
proven to work, no one can fail at it. If you want to know more, just
email me.


--- In alicesbipolarchat@yahoogroups.com, joe whitaker
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> i feel much the same way i sleep alot and most days do not even
shower because i am alone and theres no one to care my depression is
so deep sometimes i pray to die in my sleep so i dont have to face
another day of lonelyness and hopelessness
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> Joseph David Whitaker
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> --- On Tue, 1/6/09, David McCannon <dave3103@...> wrote:
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> From: David McCannon <dave3103@...>
> Subject: [Alices Bipolar Chat ] The problems I face in everyday
life I want to change!
> To: alicesbipolarchat@yahoogroups.com,
bipolar_sucks@yahoogroups.com,
depression_and_suicide_help@yahoogroups.com,
escape_suicide@yahoogroups.com,
men_overcoming_depression@yahoogroups.com,
schizoaffectivesupportgroup@yahoogroups.com, "Annette White"
<annettelwhite@...>
> Date: Tuesday, January 6, 2009, 12:08 AM
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> The problems I face in everyday life I want to change!
> January 6, 2009
> David W. McCannon
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> The major problem with my life is the depression I have that goes
with my Bipolar Type II illness.  I get down and feel very suicidal
at times.  Simple chores like house keeping and hygiene that comes
with self care is a major task for me.  When I get seriously
depressed I lock myself in and I sleep for days.  Nothing around the
house gets done and I become a total mess.  I wish that this was not
true about me.  If I want to get anywhere in this world I must take
care of me, because no one else will do it for me.
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> My second problem is managing money and I am not good at doing
that.  It causes unnecessary problems and it is a trigger for my
suicidal ideation.  I feel that I am worthless because I can¢t hold a
job and manage my money.  I think my life would be much better if I
overcome these shortcomings.  I must learn that I am human and
everyone has their faults and that in itself don¢t merit a death
sentence. 
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> Maybe because I was raised a fundamental Christian I feel to love
oneself is a sin, because it is a form of pride.  I was always taught
others first and self last, and I was also taught that no one is
good.  All have sinned and fallen short of God¢s standards.  I feel
that I do not deserve to be happy, and by all means if I get what I
deserve I would burn in hell forever.
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> I know that this is really screwed up thinking, but that is how I
was raised.
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> Dave
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> David W. McCannon
> 2360 W BROAD ST APT # 211
> Athens, GA 30606
> http://athensmental health.org
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