welcome to the group. While it's true that medication may take a little off
your creative edge, it is worth it to avoid the life-shattering highs and lows
imho. I take Wellbutrin as well, and I find it very effective - I saw a
decrease in my suicidal ideations within days.

Hope this helps,

-Lyn

Yes, actually, it has occurred to me that I might be quite mad.  Why do you
ask? -Lynoth


--- On Thu, 9/11/08, chantalsoudant <cmsoudant@...> wrote:

> From: chantalsoudant <cmsoudant@...>
> Subject: [Alices Bipolar Chat ] New and nervous...
> To: alicesbipolarchat@yahoogroups.com
> Date: Thursday, September 11, 2008, 9:39 AM
> Hello,
> I am new to this whole bipolar thing. My mom went to a
> support group
> and came back feeling that there might finally be an
> answer. I am 36
> years old and have struggled with extreme, unexplainable
> mood swings
> as far back as I can remember. I thought that if I just
> meditated
> more, exercised more, did more affirmations, read more
> self-help
> books, etc that I was a strong enough, intelligent enough
> to conquer
> it on my own. Yet, 20 plus years later, it has affected
> every job,
> every relationship, every aspect of my life.
>
> And so, at last, I have finally surrendered to my diagnosis
> and have
> sought help. I have read countless chat sites but yours
> seemed to be
> the most inviting so I decided to join. I am extremely
> nervous about
> taking medication and would so appreciate any feedback. I
> have been
> diagnosed with bipolar II and my doctor prescribed me
> Geodon and
> Wellbutrin and is having me wean off the low dose of
> Lexapro I am on.
>
> I HATE the idea of being lethargic and cognitively dulled.
> I am a
> professional songwriter and depend on my creativity to make
> a living.
> While the idea of warding off the dark pit of despair that
> inexplicably overtakes me, the idea of completely losing
> the periods
> of heightened energy and creativity scare me even more. I
> have not
> filled my prescriptions yet because I am hoping to get some
> feedback
> from others who are tried and true. Is there hope? Sorry
> for the
> longwinded entry. Thank you all for being here and for your
> support. I
> look forward to your insights...