I forgot but no big deal...my social security lawyer wanted a payment from
me in a form of $25 for copies she has made.  I dropped my jaw saying how
can I pay for that if she knows I'm on welfare?  Anyway dad took care of it
but he said to pay him back when I get my welfare check next week.  See ya.



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Hey friends...I hate to bother you but maybe 2 brains or more is better than
one.  I am google searching and yahoo searching to no luck on finding a job
online that pays you to type, data-entry, surf, or anything online.  All the
ones I found they require you to pay something up front.  As you know I don
t have that kind of cash to dish out with being on welfare.  Yes I am
looking for a job at home or something to do.  I thought if you know of a
web site that pays you to be online you can pass it on.  I don't think my SS
will pan out.  SS short for social security.  I may break down and ask mom
to take me target again to fill out an application but what are the chances
they'll take me after I left them after a month a few years ago...al though
there is a new target in my neighborhood.  If they say to attend carts I may
not take it since that was my problem last time.  So if you know of a legit
web site that pays you to be online let me know.  I am also getting lots of
e-bay job offers but they seem they want money too.  I just hit the delete
on them.  I would like to thank you for reading this and let's see if we can
work on it together.

Your friend always;
Chris

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I had a good day today.  I finally got my hair cut to a better looking me.
I wish I can show you the new me.  Then I did bribe mom to take me to Target
since this weekend my sister wants to go mom/daughter shopping.  I bought 4
shirts tennis shoes and 3 PJ bottoms all for $60.  I only got shoes cause if
I wear the ones I got now and mow the lawn later in the spring, I won't have
a spare to go out in the town with.  My other shirts got too small for me to
wear so I had to get some.  I got the cheapest ones that they had for $4.99.
  Hey dollar general wanted $6 for a shirt...so I did save a few bucks.
Tennis shoes were $15..but the pair I really liked were $30.  So I did save
big time.  PJ's were originally $13, I got them for $10.  So I did good
today.  Oh, dad paid for my hair cut.  He wanted me to get a GI style, but I
am repeating myself to them, the only time I will get them type haircuts is
when I am not longer on this Earth.  I don't care for it.  He says it will
keep you hair clean and its a lot easier to take care of.  Not me friends.
I want something to comb/brush during the day.  LOL.  Again thanks for
reading my day and life of me.  I am just restless cause I can't nap.  I am
a bit tired but I guess I am not use to the nap after 3 days not having one.

OH, I wish I can invite everyone over for dinner, it's pasta night.  To me,
mom makes darn good pasta.  Maybe I'll email you some....LOL.  Have a good
time now and talk to you next time.

Chris

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I got this in my mail box that is from my uncle's in Texas town.  I wish I
could have gone, if I had an airline ticket and time to go.  I am only
sharing it to share that this is our month, if it is for us.  I am sorry if
I did offend anyone though.

March is MHMR Awareness Month
Missouri City Mayor Allen Owen and Fort Bend County Clerk Diane Wilson
Present Proclamations
The stage was set at Community Park in Missouri City at a festive setting,
picnic-style under the pavilion, calling attention at helping promote
understanding of mental retardation with a gathering in celebration of
Mental Health Mental Retardation Awareness Month.
Missouri City Mayor Allen Owen and Fort Bend County Clerk, Diane Wilson, who
represented both Fort Bend County and the Fort Bend County Texana MHMR Board
as Chairman, were among the participants of the recent celebration on
Saturday, March 18, 2006. Mayor Owen and Wilson presented proclamations
calling attention to the number of Texans, approximately 536,000, with
mental retardation. "Most persons having mental retardation, with support,
can live productive and fulfilling lives," stated Mayor Owen further noting
that organizations such as "the Texana MHMR Center is committed to providing
quality developmental disability services for persons with mental
retardation."
The festive gathering featured balloon artists, live entertainment, and
great picnic food among other activities in celebration of the awareness
commemoration.  The festivities, complete with live music, celebrate the
awareness month by promoting a better understanding to help lessen the
stigma, reduce fear, and result in the opportunity to have persons with MHMR
live in the most appropriate setting possible and function to their fullest
possible capacity.

(l-r) Kevin Barker, Regional Manager of the Fort Bend County Texana MHMR, is
joined by Missouri City Mayor Allen Owen, Fort Bend County Clerk, Diane
Wilson, and Charlie Huber, Chairman of the Board of Directors of the Fort
Bend ARC, in commemoration of Mental Health Mental Retardation Awareness
Month.
Breanna Barrett (left) and Saundra Bates (right) compare their identically
shaped balloon bracelets at the recent picnic at Community Park in Missouri
City commemorating Mental Health Mental Awareness Month.


City of Missouri City
March 22, 2006
2006-037-032206-mhmrmonth.htm




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I totally forgot about my appointment with my case manager today.  It was to
be in the afternoon but since she has to go far away after my appointment
she rescheduled me about 2 hours ago.  She wanted to take me to a social
hall/activity center so I can get out of the house and mingle.  That will
also relieve me of stress and my parent's stress.  I don't see it happening
though.  Those guys/gals were so how do I say it, weird.  You thought I was
strange, no offense to you but these folks were like jumping off the walls.
Only one of them agreed to take me a small tour of the place since its only
a basement of a play area, TV room, computer lab, kitchen, library, and a
job resource thing.  Yeah I could use some of those skills, but I don't
think I really want that kind of help.  I do socialize with you on here,
what more do people want???  I know its stressful with mom and dad think I
am doing nothing but sit here on the computer all day.  I can do that over
there, but I seen a sign saying, no access to the Internet.  What would I be
doing thing, pulling my hair out???  Yeah they make flyers, newsletters, and
what not, but I can do that here too.  I don't know.  I think people are
making me look like a hermit or something.  I am not a hermit.  I feel like
telling everyone that, but how do I say that calmly without crying like I am
now and with out agrevation?  I don't know.

After I submit this for your viewing, I gotta go to the local tax office to
tell them I had no income.  That be my taxes for the year.  I know its not
your business but I thought I would share that.  Maybe I can walk around the
school too while mom and dad tells them again that their retired and have
social security and a pension as their income.  Mom don't have an income
actually.  She' to get some from uncle's estate every few months apparently
since she is of age to take a withdrawal.  I wish I had a few pennies of
that estate, but I guess it is being saved for the time when they need it,
after their death.  I guess I can respect that.

Well time for me to find lunch or something.  I wanted to make pasta a roni,
but by time it cooks up and heats up everyone will be waiting on me to go
with them.  I guess it'll be another day's lunch.  Yes its a lunch by  the
way.  I guess I do eat too much for a setting.  That's my problem I suppose.
  Well talk to you next time.  Thanks for listening as always.  Take care :).

Chris

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I just got back from my own session with my therapist.  She wanted to know
What I thought of mom and dad's session with me last week.  Man that opened
A can of worms and she was so glad I opened up.  She wished that I did that
While they were with me but glad I did today anyway.  I told her how I felt
And I was showing signs of a bit of anger.  I usually cry when angry but not
This time.  I was strong but not too aggressive.  She was proud of me to
Finally speak my mind.

She said I am of a sound mind and body that they shouldn't be bugging me as
They do.  They still see a child in me its one reason they want a child in
Return.  They want me independent but they don't.  As my therapist and I
Said, they are conflicting themselves sending very mixed messages to her and
Me.

SHe knows I need transportation so its one reason I depend on them, and for
Everything else I should be able to handle on my own.  She don't know why
They can' t see that.  She too was appalled by the way that mom was handling
Things this past weekend with calling my old doctors and therapists.  She
Said I could have done that myself if I felt it was warranted.  There was no
Need for her to cross that line we imagine.  We only could assume what was
Being said.  That is still flat out wrong though...just because she told me
Days later what was said, don't mean it was really what was said.

Yes you probably can see I am anxious and excited.  Be proud that I did
Speak up to my therapist and she will respect my wishes.  She knows that my
Folks are not in the charts to be spoken to.  Next week we're hoping we can
Come up with a plan to defend my parents when they say things to me so I don
T get so upset.  With that I await a reply but its not necessary.  Thanks
For listening and take care.  Oh by the way, I love you :)....that as a
Friend of course.

Chris

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Mom told me finally she did talk to my first psychologist.  She found him by
way of his father's name in the phone book.  I told she went out of bounds
on that.  She said he did say to reach him if we ever needed him. I don't
remember that.  Anyway he said to get my old records the hospital he was
affiliated with has them or should.  He wished me luck and if I need a
friend to call him anytime.  I don't feel like it anyway since he got "fired
  why should I lean on him for support.  I know he's a psychologist but if he
s not practicing now why should I keep him occupied.

Then mom said he just had a 6 valve bypass.  I should be worried yes but do
I really care?  That is getting to personal with the doctors.  Talk to you
later.


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LOVE YA,

One morning you will never wake up, do all your friends know you love them?
I was thinking...I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if
I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships that needed rekindling or
three words needing to be said. Let every one of your friends know you love
them. Even if you think they don't love you back, you would be amazed at
what those three little words and a smile can do.

And just in case GOD calls me home before I see you again....... I LOVE
YA!!!


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You guys won't believe this but I will say it anyway.  Last night it sounded
like my mom was calling all over to find one of my 1st psychologist.  She
knows his family so she called them first by way of the phone book I guess.
Then I guess she convinced them to give her the phone number of my
psychologist.  He is not in the phone book for obvious reasons but going out
of your way to reach him like the way she did?  Man that burns me.  A few
minutes ago she got the nerve to ask me if everything is ok.  I wish I can
tell her without upsetting her how I feel.  She would then cry to dad what
happened and then dad would get on me for that.  That usually happens when
we have a family argument.  I don't know what more to say.  She has no
consideration like my dad about my well being.  I am going to start telling
my doctors to leave my family out of it.  They are not paying you to be seen
and Its my insurance paying for me.  If they don't like that I just live
with the pain of having no one but the email to talk to.  Thanks for
listening and talk to you soon.

Chris

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I don't know what to say.  I am upset but I have a right to.  I wish I can
just say shut up to my parents.  They got me so upset I am crying now.
Every time my new Therapist wanted to ask me a question and if I left
something out, my dad especially had to have a say.  I was ready to say shut
the heck up.  I had to go to the bathroom during the session and when I
returned, I couldn't return to the room.  It was like a huge secret going on


He asked work history, personal history, life history and such.  I tried
answering the best I could and know how.  That is all he could of asked for.
  When I did return to the room they were ready to wrap it up to set up an
appointment for my testings.  It is the week after I repeat after when the
judge wants all the paper work turned in.  That is March 31.  Judge wants
things on March 24.  I don't know if this will work or not.  I guess we'll
see.

Rusty our family cat just came by to visit me.  He must sense I am upset.
Well I am going to see what is going on and I may hit the sack.  I had a
headache all day.  I guess stress from this appointment.  THanks for
listening and what not.  Talk to you soon.

Chris

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I am not having a good day.  Got up early for a change.  Then dad said we're
going to find my new shrink, want to come?  I did to try to help find that
building.  After we got there, it was so stressful cause it of the parking
(not my problem) but then dad followed me in cause I was heading in wrong
direction. I was going up the street where the building was right in front
of me when I got out of the car.  We got the papers I needed to fill out.
Got home, had a lunch, which was bagel bites again.  Anyway, then it was
time for my Therapy session.  I didn't want them there but my parents had
their talk to tell her what I am doing so wrong in my life.  I wish they
didn't but they did.  They just want me to be with them more or less.  I
spend way too much time in my room and computer.  If we're watching the same
show why can't we watch it together or something.  Sigh.  I am all rattled
and nerve shaking.  It's all I really got to say.  I don't what more or less
to say too.  OH my new shrink's appointment is Thursday night at 6:30.  What
an ugly time for it.  I guess I'm grateful we found it today so we didn't
have to go in the dark to find it.  I guess I will tell you what happens
there.  I feel a tad better writing this.  Have a good day.

Chris

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PLEASE READ IMPORTANT!!!

The link at the end goes to the FDA website.

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You may want to try calling the 800 number listed on most
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I just got back with my therapist.  She was too busy to call me for a month.
  Teaching and other clients was her story.  Oh well.  She still wishes she
could tell me to get rid of my cell.  After telling her it costs $175-250 to
cancel it she said that can't happen either, so I guess your stuck with the
phone.  She proceeded saying that everyone wants a neuro-psychiatric test
done on me, but this office and other similar ones don't do that.  SHe don't
know where I should go for one.  Oh well that went that idea.  With that
idea we think how I may get denied disability.  So we talked about her
looking at my resume to see what can be done if anything.  The graphics I
put in them should be for a graphic artist or advertising job.  So I will
show her a lousy resume to show her how terrible it looks.  SHe said just to
"copy" a book or a template that's easily accessible online.

That was my day.  Talk to you later.

Chris

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Today Is National Mental Health day!

You can do your bit by remembering to send an email to an unstable friend.
Well... My bit's done

MEEEOOOWWW



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While shopping with mom at our local store, they had a free blood
cholesterol and blood pressure reading.  Just a little pinch for the blood
cholesterol though.  Anyway they asked a few questions then they did the
test.  At being 5'3" 190 pounds I was obese on a weight mass unit or
whatever they call it.  Yes I am short if you didn't know.  I am over weight
I know that.  I swear its the medicine though.  Anyway the quack had to do
my blood pressure twice cause the first time was too low to register.  Then
it said I was at 118/88.  Bottom number was always high for me.  SHe said it
was normal anyway.  Now my cholesterol which took 5 minutes to get a result,
showed up at 206.  Just above the high limit of 200 but high enough.  Yes I
am on medicine for it so it could be a lot worse.  My PCP may increase the
strength of the medicine if he found out it was still high.  So you know I
am on a low dose of Lipitor.

Anyway when we went out earlier to find a building for my sister's interview
on Monday, I started to loose my pants.  Good thing we didn't walk the
streets.  I guess I am slowly loosing my weight.  I guess everyone can't
wait till spring for a reason or two but I should look forward to that so I
can start doing a walk around the neighborhood.  I refuse to do it when its
nippy out.  That when its below 45 degrees F.

Well I don't know what to get into now, had a small bowl of chicken soup for
lunch that was home made.  Man it was good.  I wish I knew how to make it
for you guys (ha ha ha).  Take care and have a good weekend and week ahead.
:)

Your friend always;
Chris in PA, USA

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I got good news but some bad.  I had my hearing.  I survived it.  The sad
news now is it is on a contingency because of my vision.  The judge needs
more information about my latest vision to decide this case.  I feel with
that my chances are now gone.  I am seeing better slowly each time I go.  It
is not where I like it to be, but it's an improvement.

The court also decided that I could do floor buffering or some sort of
laundry mat job.  I was ready to blast them saying I did forget to mention
that I am allergic to that stuff.  I thought I did though.  I said I could
wash the floor but without chemicals.  I guess they didn't catch it.  Oh man
if they didn't.
   I still got my headache.  I guess it'll go away soon enough.  Thanks for
the prayers and thoughts.  It meant so much to me.  Talk to you guys when I
get a chance to or just write back.  Take care all.

Chris

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The day has come.  My court hearing for disability is tomorrow (Tuesday).  I
am very nervous and anxious.  I am having major headaches from it.  I had to
go to bed real early last night (Sunday).  I know it'll go all right but my
fears are fears.  I guess I'll just answer the questions to the best of my
ability and go from there.  I thank each of you for your prayers in your own
special way.  I will write sometime tomorrow evening or Wednesday about my
experience and a known verdict.  Take care all and talk to you real soon.

Chris;
PA, USA

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I just got back from my lawyer's office.  It took 2 hours.  Wow.  I expected
a short visit.  She asked questions that she will ask at the hearing.  I did
fine.  Dad tried to "teach me", but she interjected saying he'll have his
say after I am done having my interview with her.  It was mostly about my
vision not mental.  Dad made it mental than vision.  I told her I still have
problems seeing even after the surgery.  Glasses "may" help.  She per sued
and asked if I had so much trouble seeing, why did I try to have my other
eyes operated on.  I told to see if I can see better with that eye.  She
then asked if I can sit down and work for 8 hours at  a computer, or any job
   I said no cause its hard to follow directions to what a boss requests or
even what I can do. I don't have the concentration to do that.  If I was on
a computer for 8 hours I would probably make tons of mistakes if I turned it
in to a boss.  He / she may n to like it and give me a bad rap.  I do make
typos, we all do, but for a special report to be turned in it is not
acceptable I know that.  She asked if I drove and why not.  I had my version
dad rebutted again.  He didn't have the patience I swear.  When it was his
turn well mom and dad's turn I kept quiet so I hear what they got to say.  I
got upset a bit but I remained calm cause I knew he had to say what he had
to.  He mostly said things about home not at the work place, so he was not
answering the questions properly.  I am starting to laugh at that... Just
because I don't get along at home don't mean I get along with folks at work.
.but he says at work I can quit but at home I fight back.  He knows the
difference but one time he may snap at  work.  That is why he can't work.  I
am saying to myself MAY????  You can't assume in court.  I don't know.  I
fear I lost my case though it is next week and stuff.  I guess I start
looking in the paper for a job.  I should have applied to the job I seen a
few weeks ago if I knew the questions like this... Yeah it is very part time
job but at least got me out  of the house.  I am just ranting and raving...I
don't know.  SHe even asked about my headaches and what triggers them I said
I guess..this or that, and she said I can't say I guess.  Sigh.  OH well I
guess (oops) I will go for now.  Thanks for hearing me out today.  Time to
find some lunch and take it easy.  Maybe I'll watch some Olympic Hockey in a
bit.  See ya.

Chris

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Hello.  I know its early Tuesday Morning but I just woke up.  I see my
disability hearing lawyer today for a practice session.  My hearing is next
week and I am nervous for today and next week.  I know you all will be
praying for me in your special way.  I if not I know you wish me luck.  I
will update you when I return from the practice what I was told.  Now its my
turn to hit back to bed.  Thanks for listening.

Chris

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Hi friends.  I know I am early but I thought I would give my Valentine's Day
wishes out now and over with.  I hope your loved ones give you a special
gift.  I don't know what that is nor I really care, but my gift to you is a
greeting.  No I don't have a box of chocolate to give out either.  Maybe if
you need a friend to give you a boost I can try to give that.  Take care and
see you next time.

Your friend always;
Chris

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This afternoon I had a psychiatrist appointment.  I really didn't see why I
had to go since I am doing so well except gaining weight.  That is not
really a worry to him but he did say my meds will add tons of weight on me.
So try to do some work around the house or take a walk once in a while.
Sigh,  I wish I had a prescription to go the gym if they really want me to
do exercises.
  He preceded to lower my Risperdal and I think even the Paxil.  I go back in
a month's time.

I told him I bet you were excited about the football game and he said no not
really cause he's a transplant to the area.  I told him I didn't go crazy
either cause what can I do in front of a TV to help any body win.  He
sneered and looked like he agreed.

Well I am going to see if I can do my wash for now cause tomorrow I'm busy
with my case worker and Wednesday is my eye appointment and I need a pair of
jeans to wear.

You know how to reach me if you want to ask something.

Chris

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If you care to listen to a Steeler Fight song for the superbowl...


http://www.youtube.com/?v=1EG9g0PpWWw


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Hi friends....I finally got my old phone back and wasted $8 for the techie
to see it.  It was dead.  So went to Cingular this afternoon and spent $100
on a new phone.  I'll be getting $50 back in a rebate.  Man it is hard to
text message on it though.  Took me 30 minutes to do 1 message to a bunch of
cell friends.  Talk to you guys later.

Chris

PS If you want to text me, let me know and we'll arrange something for you.

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I wrote that e-mail too soon a few minutes ago.  The techie just called and
said my phone is basically DOA (dead).  The back lights are not working and
only thing that may work will probably not work in my case.  So I have to
pay $8 for him to look at it and then spend $120 or so for a new phone.
Thanks for letting me share this sad news about my phone.  No I don't want
anyone's used phone. If I must pay $120 for a new I must, but to pay
shipping for a used one is not for me.

Take care;
Chris

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Hello friends;

My week is ok.  I had seen my new therapist.  It went well until she decides
to wants to talk to my mom.  SHe thinks I need a budget class so I know how
to use wisely the little income I do make.  I told her I just have a cell
phone and she said it is not necessary to have.  It upsetted me a bit but I
m keeping it no matter what.

That brings me to this, I had an accident to my phone.  A friend called
saying to call them back.  I took the phone to the restroom and I ended up
dropping it in the commode (toilet).  Yes I am embarrassed.  It died on me.
I told one of you about this and gave me a recommendation of removing
everything and air drying or fan dry the phone.  Well a day later I put
everything back into the phone and my friends, it is "barely" working today.
  THe light on it is dim but everything else is working.  I am happy.  I
would have to pay like $120+ for a new phone, and that money I don't have
with my income.  I am trying to save up on my income as much as possible.  I
have bought a few new things f0r my computer and I am happy I can spend a
bit of my money.

At  therapy we talked about my anger and what sets me off.  My therapist
sees both sides of the issue but being of my parents's age (approximately)
she is siding with them a bit more.  It's hard to talk to a new doctor or
therapist about your problems isn't it?  I think so.  I told her I get angry
at the rules and she says what rules.  It was hard to come up with an
example.  I don't like being put in a cage like that.  OH well.

Friday I was to get my income from the ATM.  Well the bank I usually go to
didn't accept my card this time.  I tried twice, and nothing, saying I am
not their customer.  Oh well.  Mom and dad later went to that bank to handle
more of my uncle's affairs.  I'll explain that if you want me to.  They
officially closed on uncle's house on THursday night.  Mom is still shaken
it was sold so fast.  She misses her home (she grew up in that house).  She
told me today (Saturday) she has good minutes and bad.  She seems ok to me,
but I don't spend entirely enough time with my family cause I hide on here
(computer/Internet).  Dad is kinda pleading that I spend more time with them
   I just don't want to spend company with them.

I know its Super Bowl season and PIttsburgh is one of the teams...but man I
am annoyed by the news coverage and things around my town.  I know many are
in "manic" mode with this, but don't you think you're over killing this a
wee bit?  Most of the news is about the Steelers.  I see why but how about
some other news?  Well the other news is the weather.  Weather then precedes
to talk about the Detroit (Super Bowl location) and I get more annoyed.  For
heavens sakes the game is indoors, why worry about the weather.  Well they
re saying that cause of people travelling up that way.  I should just hide
for another week and maybe it'll be all over with.  Mom wanted to buy me a
Steeler shirt today so I can root them on, but I refused.  Usually when I
wear Steeler stuff they loose, but last Sunday they won with a shirt I
decided to wear for the heck of it.

Well time to go and see if dad needs  a hand with the new thermostat.  He
thinks the old one is inaccurate.  I guess it's his money to spend on a new
thermostat.  I don't know how I can help but maybe hold a dang flash light.
If you want to write me, you can anytime.  Take care.

Your friend always;
Chris

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Today I met my new therapist but she will be known as a Psychologist.  She is as
old as my mother probably.  SHe had a hard time writing down my appointment.  Oh
dear.  My old therapist is going on to be a university teacher and a group
therapist instead of a 1 on 1 therapist.  He prefers them instead.  He said its
more family involvment then just the individual as I was.  He's a little upset
that my family can't make its mind up seeing someone about me.  Just
contradictions get him upset a bit.  But he got over it and glad it was only me.
We talked or I should say as he did, he wishes I did more talking then
listening.  He was shocked to learn I slep 2/3's of my day away.  THat's classic
depression.  Being bored as I always use to write is also a classic.  He wished
me luck in my disabilitg hearing but never been through a case before he don't
know what my chances are but if he had to testify he would say I need a job to
get active instead of being this way all day.  He's glad I am getting over my
anger problems slowly.  SInce I've been with him since September I didn't get
angery with family or him and he's so glad I am toned down in that.  He wished I
can continue that progress to keeping my temper in check.

I didn't tell him but  it is not his fault but mother nature's.  I had a hard
time focussing today.  I guess another classic symptom of depresion.  IT was
like I was in a zorp machine or whatever.  FLahses and colors all around him. 
IT was the lighting again.  I didn't wear my sunglasses in there.  His face was
all fuzzy and blurry.  It is still now t yping this so whatever typos I got  I
got.  I can see enough to know what I'm typing but its about all  I see the eye
doct or in 2 weeks to get tested for glasses again.  HOpefully that'll solve
that mystery.

I think that's all I gotta say for now.  I be talking to some of you later. 
Have a great day/night /evning/week/weekend.  Hugs too!

--
Your friend always;
Chris

Hi... I just woke up from a nice nap, sorry.  I am writing cause I think I am
starting to remember the other dx's (diagnosis)  the therapist told me
yesterday.  Hold on to your chair or loved one.  Possible borderline
psychiophernia (spelling).  I was shocked too but didn't let anyone elaborate on
it unless they tell me more about that finding.  Maybe I'll drag the doctor to
talk about my dx's before my hearing to see what is going on.  I also will get a
new therapist not this THursday coming but on Jan. 25th.  She is a psychologiy
teacher and a student of psychology, well that makes sense.  I guess she is a
Psychologist then.  A lil different from a therapist then I guess.  Well I
thought I would write this to my groups and friends before I forget again.  I
guess I'll need more prayers for those who pray.  Take care and have a nice
weekend if you didn't start it yet.

--
Your friend always;
Chris

http://www.gatewaylegal.org/ssfor.htm

man this makes a lot of sense and now makes my case even more complex cause i am
so borderline.  sigh. hope you get to read it.

--
Your friend always;
Chris

Caseworker came and talked to my family.  SHe later told me, man they are
stubborn. LOL.  I'm stubborn too she said, I said now you see why.  SHe got
engaged on CHristmas, yippee...sorry.  She took me out to lunch for her
breakfast.  SHe had a huge breakfast and i had a huge lunch.  I had a grilled
chicken salad and she had eggs with ham and bacon and pankcakes (hot cakes). 
She had me sign a few papers adn make next time's appointment.  SHe then took me
to therapy.  THat is next...

i had a good therapy session today, whiched eased my tension between me and my
doctor and mom.  The therapist told me that this doctor wouldn't have said much
to my mom if anything.  A yes or no answer to my mom over the phone is nothing
to sweat over...but he'll still inform the doctor my concern and report back to
me next week.  I then proceeded to ask if their was ever a thorough evaluation
on me or whatever to make my parents happy and my lawyer thrilled.  He said if I
was a danger to society (which I am not), there is no need to do this over a
hospital visit.  It's not worth the cost and time to admit you plus the hospital
won't accept you for being who you are as you present yourself to us.  That was
a good relief.  He then said Let me read you the evaluation.  He did say I got a
score of 50 out of 100... I guess thats somewhat good cause I was at 48 last
year.  I got problems but not major problems.  Let's see if I remember any of
them.  BIPOLAR NOS, DEPENDENT PERSONALITY (not my fault mind you he said), some
Depression, and some anxiety (but its not always your fault on this either), and
there were a few others like Intermittent Explosive Disorder which he explained
a little bit.  He went on and on about other problems but they have escapred me.
ANyway he said this is the next to last meeting.  He's moving on.  He's sad to
have been told that I knew he was leaving.  He thought he would do them
personally instead of having everyone else tell me.  I guess the world is small
cause it comes around what goes around.  He noticed scratches on my hand, but I
told him it is Rusty (our cat) and me horseplaying with each other.  He said he
thought it was a cat scratch.  I'm glad.  He said that is good you and the cat
are playing so well.  I didn't take that as either criticisom or a joke.

Anyway after we got home, we had a guest at our front door.  IT was the state
representative for our area.  He knew who I was and wasn't for the sunglasses I
would have known who he was too.  He said he's going to give his name to us to
use for references if we ever need them for a job.  He gave mom a few websites
for my sister and I to find state civil and uncivil jobs.  IO knew what they
were anyway so I'lll look at it later.  Well I thought I share my information
today.  I'll talk to you guys later ok??  Have a good day, and hug someone you
love later on or whatever for me...LOL.

--
Your friend always;
Chris