Even with a dreadful headache I went to therapy...on the way there dad/mom tried
to communicate that it was my pay day and they were messing things up...dad rose
his voice and got angry at a van in middle of a private drive where he turned
around and took me to get my 1/2 month's pay from the state. That didn't help
my headache at all.

Then at therapy, my therapist was oh 5 minutes late he claims due to an
emergency. I give him 5 minutes anyway. I read off some emails I wrote and
had to stop. He wanted to know why I do write to you guys and cry to you. He
didn't like my paraphrasing but he knew that if I understood and I told him I am
just trying to paint a picture on what he said and I understood. He agreed that
writing things down is a good source of help. He wanted to make sure I was
talking to the write group and group of friends that would understand. I said
it was.

After reading about 4 of the messages I wrote, he talked about my history. That
was painful...tears poured out of me. I guess it was good cause it was
depressing, abusive, and anxious... I was so anxious I hope he understood me.
He didn't ask for me to repeat. I won' to go into details here, but it was hard
to remember all the encounters I had with mom and dad. But enough that even if
I was saying all that jazz or all that, he understood...phew. He proceeded to
write down my next appointment next Wednesday. I guess I am stuck with him for
a long time. He thinks as smart as I am I should be able to find work though
that has been rough on me too. He may work with me on that.

Before all this though, I did call my social security lawyer's girl Friday and
updated her on medicines, appointments and such. I did ask her again how soon
she thought the hearing may be. Since I filled in March last year, she thinks
it might be early Spring next year! Yep they are now running a whole year
behind. Yikes. Anyway I hope to still have temporarily disabled papers and
money coming in. The caseworker there is running behind on his paper work due
to a death in his family. I guess it'll work itself out. I am fine...headache
still there when I am sitting up watching TV, or type this, but if I lay down it
goes away...what is that? I guess a Migraine.

Well, I am off to see what ibis cooking for tonight. I may check values of the
coins I did find. I did database them and that's complete. I know a few coins
will fetch in a lot.

Your friend always with love;
Chris

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