I didn't feel like writing yesterday but I got some motivation today. Yes
motivation...that is key in this mailing. Everyone wants me to go that
center to get out of the house and meet new friends. I am still
shy/scared/anxious about it. I don't know what it is. I guess cause I will
be limited on what I can and can't do. So that has to be motivation to go
or not. I'm still fighting on it.

Next motivation thing is since I am "hesitating" on going, my therapist
thought she would issue me a week long calendar so she can see what I do in
a week. Then from there she wants a schedule set on me. I laughed at her
saying I don't need a schedule cause I do things when I feel up to it. I
don't need a calendar to tell me, oh its Wednesday and its time to cut the
grass or refill my pill container. To me its so stupid. So I need
motivation on that, but I am writing things down like I am suppose to do..
just to please her, definitely not for me.

Lastly, since I told you I should hear something about my MMPI-2 Test by now
and I haven't. I guess I should call the doctor to see how or when I will
find out. I don't feel like calling him though. Yes another motivation to
do something and I don't have such energy.

I guess that's how I feel this week...and Happy Spring Holiday to everyone.
Talk to you guys later.

Chris

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