Hello Support group, this is my first time joining one of this
nature. I am a mother of 3 kids all with ADD. (one is ADD/ADHD and
the 2 others are ADHD)
I swear I could write a book for everyday that we attempt to cope.
Past year now I have become numb to their actions and behaviors, I
cannot find myself getting to a boiling point as I use to.

Sometimes I just want to run away, other times I question my sanity,
I even ask myself what did I do so terribly wrong to give birth to
the children that destroy everything in their paths, to never listen
to reason, to act now, think later syndrome. Everyday my home is a
wreck, both myself and husband work very hard out of the home. we
are on different shifts from different jobs so there is always a
parent in the home.
I didn't come on here for a poor me act but to share with others,
and let you know that I know... 100% what your all going through.. I
just want to cry almost everyday. I will probably regret saying this
but if I knew what ADHD really meant and what it all stands for I
would never have married my husband. This gene is so powerful in him
that it spread like a virus through all my kids. Forgive me if no
one else may agree what I mean or what I feel, but this is what's in
my heart and I yearn for a normal day, for one day without chaos,
for one day with some form of order. I would like to enjoy the
simple thing of a bunch of peonies sitting in a vase on my kitchen
table and take a moment to feel at a glance of joy just looking at
the miracle, the brilliant color, the peace for a split second comes
into view, and than watch it wither away... That is how I feel.

My children are cared for and treated with respect and I feel like
a bad mother talking like this, but I pretty much keep my feelings
to myself. I try to keep my tears from falling out of my eyeballs in
front of them.. I bring my makeup with me on my way to work so I can
have a good cry on the way to work and freshen up just before
walking in.
I suppose I can speak for everyone when I say "I can go on and on
and on" but I believe I already said too much and I will end this.

Thank you to anyone who read this, I do feel better spilling out.
Again Thanx

Angelstitch (Jill)