Greetings!

Being on the HelpLine helps not only the caller but yourself as well.
It does take a bit of a thick skin to be on the Help Line.

Do tell about the issues during the Jewish Holiday. Just that for me
understanding the different religions helps me understand others better.

It is pretty "wacked", but we all revel in the negative instead of
the positive. After all why do we watch the news, talk shows, listen to
police and fire calls on the scanner, listen to and pass on gossip. The
list goes on. Yes, we do need to stop the negatives and unhealthy
cycles that suck us in. And we are going to be miserable about it. It's
an addiction and when you fight it you will not be happy about it. But
any recovery is going to involve pain and the more pain, the more
apparent worth.



hmsherm63 wrote:
> Hi,
>
> I have been unable to attend the meetings.
>
> Things are going ok. I did sign up for taking calls at night once a
> month.
>
> I just want to say hello. I hope everyone is doing well. The Jewish
> High Holiday season in in full swing; these bring their own issues
> which I will skip for the time being.
>
> Things here are going ok. As with everyone else, there are the days
> and weeks that I feel I will never ever get out of the funk and it
> becomes such a vicious circle. But then there is this sick part of me
> that revels in the anger and hate that builds. It is this self-
> punishing process that I find this sick satisfaction in. Satisfaction
> is not the right word; perhaps pleasure. Funny, part of me wants to
> stop the cycle from building, but the more i can be angry at myself and
> punish myself I get this rush of power. Now how whacked is that?
>
> Har
>
>