Hi,

I have been unable to attend the meetings.

Things are going ok. I did sign up for taking calls at night once a
month.

I just want to say hello. I hope everyone is doing well. The Jewish
High Holiday season in in full swing; these bring their own issues
which I will skip for the time being.

Things here are going ok. As with everyone else, there are the days
and weeks that I feel I will never ever get out of the funk and it
becomes such a vicious circle. But then there is this sick part of me
that revels in the anger and hate that builds. It is this self-
punishing process that I find this sick satisfaction in. Satisfaction
is not the right word; perhaps pleasure. Funny, part of me wants to
stop the cycle from building, but the more i can be angry at myself and
punish myself I get this rush of power. Now how whacked is that?

Har