Thanks for your encouragement. I also live in Mad. Hts. I live off 11 mile
between John R and I-75. There is a Central Station bar on the corner and a
Tuffy. There is also a 7-11 real close. Do you know where I live?

Love Christine


>From: "Mary Thumm" <matijow@...>
>Reply-To: a-i-m@egroups.com
>To: <a-i-m@egroups.com>
>Subject: Re: [a-i-m] The exposure I did today (10-19-00),More
>Accomplishments.
>Date: Fri, 20 Oct 2000 23:44:59 -0400
>
>You are doing great Christine and Im very impressed with how you activate
>the tools. What city are you in? Im off of 11 mile also in Madison Hts. If
>your not far, you can set a goal towards my house to give yourself an
>additional safety net. Keep up the good work!! Mary
> ----- Original Message -----
> From: Christine R.
> To: Panic-Anxiety_Recovery@egroups.com
> Cc: AnxietyAttackers@egroups.com
> Sent: Friday, October 20, 2000 11:33 PM
> Subject: [a-i-m] The exposure I did today (10-19-00),More
>Accomplishments.
>
>
> I woke up feeling like crap. I had high anxiety. My stomach ached and
>my
> back hurt. I did not feel well at all. I was sure I was going to
>collapse.
> I was not going to do anything at all today. Caring for Paige and
>staying
> calm was going to be all I could handle. This is what I was telling
>myself.
>
> Well, around 5:30pm Paige was fussing alot. My belly felt better and I
>was
> feeling that I should challenge myself a bit for recovery's sake. I put
>her
> in the stroller and headed out the door in a state of high anxiety and
> panic. I set a small path for myself. From one kiddy corner up and
>down.
> It was hard but it was all I had to do. The first few times I got to
>the
> corner was hard. I made myself stop there and feel the symptoms. I
>even
> sat at it for awhile and breathed. I kept walking it. It did get
>easier.
> Not easy, it was still hard, but easier. So I felt the need to
>challenge
> myself further. I walked the long corner. And then I made it around
>the
> block TWICE And that was a very BIG step for me. I felt so brave that I
> walked out even further by 11 mile the busy street. I stopped at by
> boyfriend's cousin's who is two blocks away for a visit with the baby.
>And
> went home. All in all I walked for 45 minutes and visited at Tracy's
> (Charles's cousin) for a half an hour. I walked home feeling much
>stronger
> and braver than I have in awhile.
>
> My dad then came over. We went out to eat. I was fine. Then I went in
>two
> big department stores all alone while my dad waited in the car. And I
>went
> in another one with my dad. I was looking for tights for Paige and
> pantyhose for me. Paige's Baptism is Sunday. I was scared of it when I
> woke up. But I am not anymore. I will have fun. Sunday will be a fun
>day.
> The things I did were very hard today. I had panic attacks and felt
>very
> bad at times. But I used determination and positive self-talk and
>pushed
> on. I am proud of myself. I did not feel strong when I woke up and I
>could
> have used it as an excuse to stay in and feel fear. But I challenged
>myself
> and excelled my expectations. I hope I can feel this strong again. I
>hope
> recovery is on it's way.
>
> Love Christine
>
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