I am just beginning to finally bond with my two month old daughter.
This is the first mother daughter bonding I can remember because I
was only 4 when my mom was killed. So I am not real sure on how to
do it. But my therapist taught me some techniques and gave me some
tips. Tonight I took a bath with her. I have taken a quick one with
her before but this time was different. I stayed in the tub and held
her body against my body. I soothed her and sang to her. I let her
suck on my finger. I held her tight and felt so much love overcome
me I could barely breathe. This is what I have been longing for for
so many years. But it is not exactly how I wanted it. I am on the
other side this time. I am the mother, the comforter. I still have
the need to be comforted that way. I probably always will. But
tonight was sweet. I have never felt such closeness to anyone. At
least I can't remember. Paige and I will be okay. I know that now.
I can and am a good mom. And there is many more precious loving
moments to come. I am truly blessed. I could never say that
before. Life is beginning to look different to me now. What is
happening to me? I am growing up, I guess.

Love Christine