Dear Bec, where do you live? Are you getting any help or support for
your anxiety. You alone can do it, but sometimes you can't do it alone.

It sounds like you are getting into depression, and rightfully so. Who
would be thrilled with fear running their life? But, reach in and try
to nip the depression in the bud. From experience, personal and from my
s.o., I know it can get you down in the dungeon. Get some help and keep
writing. I care! Mary Ann