christine, hi there, sounds like you are on the right track sweetie!!!
im very proud of you!!! i am also glad that my advice to you, on this e
mail group and in private made you comfortable enough to be able to talk
to your doctor. when i had tyler, my first son, for those of you who
dont know me, i went through post partum depression something awful, i
was even hospitalized for it, plus my anxiety was in full force at that
time, i was foolish, i refused to take medication because i thought it
was a crutch, i thought it made me weak, and i suffered, for years i
suffered, then in 1997 i decided to get the help i needed. thank God
when my second child was born, just a year ago, i was a much smarter
person. i no longer feel that medication is a crutch, it is merely
something that helps me, at this time, to recover. i know that myself
and anyone else here who is on meds, are still in control of our
recovery, the meds arent, we are!!! christine, i let myself be afraid
when tyler was a baby, i let my anxiety, panic and depression run my
life, sure tyler didnt know it, but.....i didnt enjoy being a mom like i
could have, should have, or am the second time around. no tyler didnt
want for love, affection, support, ect. but, i know that i was a wreck
and that was not fair to him or to me. now that i am in control of my
life, and no that does not mean that i no longer get panic or
depression, but, i dont avoid and i do help myself now, i am enjoying
being a mom fully as well as enjoying every other aspect of my life.
take it from me christine, continue to help yourself, you can and will
do it!!!!!!!! your daughter deserves the best and so do you!!! in an
earlier post you said you were having trouble with the tool of belief,
well i hope it helps to know that i believe in you!!! take care honey,
love and recovery, Traci