I know what you mean Carol. I worry about my husband
too. We have been together 20 years & this illness is
tearing us up. I worry about the strain of it on him.
I worry that I am losing him because he is just too
tired to deal with all my health problems. He started
out being great about it, but he is now so far away
from me. I know that is part of why he works so many
hours. I miss him SO much! He used to be my best
friend. I don't really have many friends & the way he
was always there for me drew me so close to him over
the years. I don't have any family really except a
elderly grandmother over 1500 miles away who can't
travel because of her health. My parent's disowned me
over 10 years ago, during a really tough time for my
husband, but he got me through it. I don't know how I
would have done it without him. I was very nearly
crushed by the whole thing. But he held me up &
protected me from their rage at me even though he was
going through really tough times also & never said a
word against me. It made us so close...I don't
understand how things are falling apart the way they
are after all this time. Even with an illness after
all of this shouldn't we be able to deal with it
together?! I don't have any advice really, but I do
understand how lonely it is, Carol. At least we can
help each other through this even if we are miles
apart & have never met! This is why I have been so
depressed lately. If you need to talk, I am here! :)
Take care,
Kat

--- carol <boomersoonercriley@...> wrote:

> my husband had to have a sleep apnea test ran last
> night. they had to
> wake him up several times and about 2:00am they put
> one of those
> machines on him. after that he slept pretty good.
> well as good as you
> can in a situation like that. i just ask all of you
> to send a special
> prayer up for him. not just for this, but for alot
> of other things. i
> know it's really hard having to deal with a
> handicapped partner. for
> the first couple of years he was great, but then i
> think he just got
> tired of doing everything. i also think that he
> wonders why they wont
> say whats wrong with me. i know he believes me
> because i have to many
> outward signs. we will have been married 25yrs in
> june and we have
> never been so far apart (mentally) than we are right
> now. i'm not sure
> what to say or do. if anyone has any suggestions i
> would be thankful to
> hear them. just please remember us when you pray.
> you are truely a
> blessed bunch of friends. thank you carol riley
>
>




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