Well, I made it through Easter. In some ways it was hard, and in some ways it

wasn't. My daughter and her partner stayed at our house Saturday night which I

wasn't expecting them to, but that was okay. I just stood my ground as I always

do. My daughter slept on the couch and her partner slept in my daughter's bed.

It was difficult at times just seeing them together, although there was never

any inappropriate behavior that I could see -- other than her rubbing my

daughter's arm once, which kinda bothered me, but I didn't say anything. We all

went out to eat Friday night -- which was fine. Then went to the store a few

times together. Today, Easter, wasn't too bad and we actually had a nice dinner

and watched a movie. But in a way, I am glad they left to go to the hotel and

glad she won't still be here tomorrow when my daughter comes home from work. I

feel quite relieved that my daughter's partner lives in another state, because

if she lived here, I don't think I could deal with this on a regular basis. I

just thank the Lord for helping me get through these last few days. I won't lie

-- it wasn't easy and there were a few times I wanted to cry. But with the

Lord's help, I made it through.

Glad you held God's hand through it all.

Isn't God awesome?

Your daughter and her partner will respect you more for standing your ground.

Your daughter knew the rules growing up in your home, and it still stands for

being gay also. Your daughter still loves you for keeping the respect in your

home, I'm sure.

You know I'm not gay but, sometimes I pat, rub or put my hand on my friends arm,

shoulder, etc..

It bothers you even more when your daughter does that to her partner. As it does

bother me more when my son does it to his partner, or vice versa because, we

know that they are gay. If they weren't, it wouldn't bother us. Just something

that I think will heal with time.

I couldn't deal with the every week, or day of seeing my son with his partner

also. That is to be expected. It still hurts, and some of us can't ever deal

with it; we just tolerate it, try to keep our mouths shut and try to love as

much as possible. That to is so normal to feel.

And if you ever cry around them. I'll tell you what my precious son told me:

It's okay Momma, if you cry, because I might cry also. You see, we still love

each other as we always have. And my son hurts also because he doesn't want to

be gay. He has fought it for so long and he feels so bad for being gay because

he never wanted to hurt me. But I can't change him; only God can. He begged God

to make him not be gay, and it never happened. So only God knows why he is still

gay. I just keep praying for him and his partner. Maybe one day, God will free

both their soul's of this sin that the devil trapped them into. And I pray that

for every gay person in this world. You know it's hard for them also when you

don't want to be gay, and it just won't go away.

Just love them both as much as you can. And with time, and God's help, it will

be okay. Not saying it will be perfect, but it will be okay.

God will hold your hand, and even put you into His arms and cradle you when it

gets too much for you to handle. Trust God; He knows you more then you can ever

know yourself.

I will keep you in my prayers because, I do know how much it hurts, and how hard

it is for you because, it still hurts me, and is still hard for me. But God

cradles me a lot also. And that is what gets me through it all.



Hugs, Love in Jesus Christ,

Angel