Dear Munchie

Whooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

The second to last sentance in your email responding to THROUGH IT ALL scares me!  You said you are planning to committ suicide!  What do you mean you are planning to committ suicide?  Was that a typo?  I am praying that it is!

 

You know I have a ot to talk to you about.  So hang in there! Be strong.  Right now the stress of my day is just starting with all the kids coming in from school and the baby from daycare and dinner time with chores!  So hold on and I'll be back after dinner!  Cause we need to chat girlfriend!

 

I will leave you with these thoughts!

I am 45 no 46 no 45 yrs old!  Hmmmmmm I have lied to my kids so long I dont know how old I am!  Heee Heeee   I think my first thought of suicide was when I was 17 yrs old and had just gotten married and my new husband turned into a monster!  He beat me, tried to kill me and would rape me after each abuse to prove he was the man!  But ALL these years later, I am still alive.  I was molested by my foster brothers from age 5 yrs old to age 10, but I am still alive.  I beleive that God has a reason for me, and for you to remain on earth!  It isnt our time to go yet!  There is hope for you and I and all the other people who want to die by there own hand!  Almost every single day of my life I either wake up or go to sleep wondering why I am alive and how I can die!  I KNOW how you feel because I have been facing it for most of my life! 

 

You are more than welcome to share with me or anyone else on the message board.  I know that talking to someone does help immensly.  If you are in crisis, if you are contemplating suicide, please get help right away.  You can do this by calling 911 or by calling one of the following numbers 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)  or

 

In His Love

 

Tracee'