Hey I wish I knew what to tell you. I'm glad you came to the forum,
hopefully someone here can help you out. I know I'm just as lost as
many people here are. If you ever want to talk you can send me a yahoo
message. I guess for me when I felt the world turned its back on me I
always had my love of drawing that I could go to to for some kind of
happiness. It sounds like you have something similar, your writing,
that you enjoy doing. So I guess all I can do is wish you luck and
offer someone to talk.