First of all, forget about suicide. It's a proven
scientific fact that it will not cure shyness. :)

Seriously, I speak from experience. About 30 years
ago, when I was your age, I was miserable and began to
think of suicide. I finally did it at age 20. But I
screwed up, took the wrong pills, and ended up alive.
The whole experience was so dreadful, I knew I would
never try again. Instead, I got some therapy and was
amazed to discover that there were days when I was
glad I was alive. The misery comes and goes, but
through experience I know it ALWAYS GOES AWAY
eventually.

My advice to you is to fight the misery. Get some
therapy, read self-help books, listen to motivational
tapes. At 15, you have so much to learn about why you
are miserable and what you can do about it. I'm still
learning and intend to keep fighting until I die - of
natural causes.

If you need to, feel free to contact me on or off
list. Good luck!

Stuart

--- cuddlewitme52 <cuddlewitme52@...> wrote:

>
> Hey guys,
>
> ok, I'm really really really shy. Almost
> everwhere I go. I only
> have 3 friends I am not shy around plus my parents,
> sister, cousin
> and grandma. I'm even shy around my aunts and
> uncles. I'm 15 and a
> sophomore in high school. At school I only say at
> most 5 words a
> day. My best, best, best friend ever has a new best
> friend and is
> slowly forgetting about me. My other firends don't
> go to my school
> so I'm pretty much friendless right now.
>
> It makes me so sad. I really want to get over
> this but, whenever
> I try to I don't know what to say. Latly, I've
> seriously been
> considering suicide. I even began writing a note to
> family when they
> find me. I really don't want to do it but, I just
> hate myself.
>
> A lot of times I'll like study people I wish I
> was and try to be
> them. I really want to be myself. Can anyone please
> give me some
> advise? Thanks!
>
>
>
>