Hey guys,

ok, I'm really really really shy. Almost everwhere I go. I only
have 3 friends I am not shy around plus my parents, sister, cousin
and grandma. I'm even shy around my aunts and uncles. I'm 15 and a
sophomore in high school. At school I only say at most 5 words a
day. My best, best, best friend ever has a new best friend and is
slowly forgetting about me. My other firends don't go to my school
so I'm pretty much friendless right now.

It makes me so sad. I really want to get over this but, whenever
I try to I don't know what to say. Latly, I've seriously been
considering suicide. I even began writing a note to family when they
find me. I really don't want to do it but, I just hate myself.

A lot of times I'll like study people I wish I was and try to be
them. I really want to be myself. Can anyone please give me some
advise? Thanks!