Hi Everyone- I have been reading some of the messages here- and I
can definetly relate. Being social is a daily struggle for me- as it
has been since I was born (I think).I have a tendency to WANT to be
alone- and I enjoy my own company at times- other times It becomes
like a prison of false comfort and avoidance.
I am now 34 years old and I believe I have moved beyond the point
of blaming my past or wallowing in the negative aspects of my
personality. What has helped me the most is my faith- and the birth
of my son. I have realized that I am responsible for the outcome of
the rest of my life- and of course I want the best for my son. Every
day I try to hone my social skills by virtually forcing myself to go
to playgroups with my son- and meet the other moms. So I may not be
the most exciting person there- I do have something to offer though-
and my son enjoys the other children and when we get home- I feel
like we are part of the world of PEOPLE- and it feels really good.
Yes at times- I will think of something that makes me want to crawl
back in my comfort zone and hide- but then I remember a person
laughing at something I said- and it made me feel good- and I want to
feel it again- sure beats sitting at home not experiencing anything!
(I did enough of that in my 20's) Life is too short.