Hi,

I'm fairly new to this board, but I use ZPoint process on a daily
basis because it really works. I spend my time working on severe
abuse issues which have affected my entire life. Naturally, the
issues don't clear in a few applications (I'm peeling the layers of
a huge onion, after all)- but the difference between where I was
when I began and where I am now is astonishing- and I truly
appreciate the difference. What I've found is that after
clearing "everybody and everything else"- I'm left with "me"- and my
issues. These issues are the core of the onion (at least for me). So
I apply ZPoint for these issues, too- because I've held myself back
for way too long. Whatever doubts and fears come up- I'll use ZPoint
for that, too. And this time, I intend to shoot for the moon. As far
as feeling underappreciated- and "under" everything else, this may
have genuinely begun with others. However, I have learned that what
I am really looking for is not other's attention or appreciation-
it's my own. When I do something (anything) nice for myself or
appreciate what I do- I get my own power back, which is deeply
satisfying. That's cumulative, too. It is both priceless- and free.
Hope that helps.
--Roxane

In SharingZeroPoint@yahoogroups.com, icajic@... wrote:
>
> I use the word gremlins for smaller issues that are not that
important.
>
> Like the "Big dark boss" sends his minions(gremlins/smaller issues)
> and tells the Zpoint "here's something for you to clear."
>
> And it does feel a bit better after you clear one of those, but the
> problem is, I've been clearing things like that for over 6 months
now,
> almost daily, and I never felt like I've reached complete peace and
> clear vision of what to do with my life.
>
> I'm not ready to release these key issues. It's something that's
been
> there for my entire life, and I almost feel obliged to protect it.
> Having these constantly in the background has just been the way I
live
> my life, it's what I know about life.
>
> I guess I'll go deeper on this with you...
>
> One of the steady factors in my life has been playing a victim. Coz
> that was perhaps the only time where you would get attention and
feel
> loved by others in a family like mine (7 kids).
> A new friend I met a few months ago once said to me, and I
appreciate
> his sincerity, "There's always something wrong with you, you always
> complain about something". And it's true. But I know no other way.
I
> feel like if I don't do it, only then there will be absolutely no
> attention for me. That's probably the reason I'm often get mild
> sicknesses, my feet ligaments keep getting torn when I play
sports. A
> few weeks ago, I got this corn on the bottom of my foot(heal) so I
> can't walk properly.
>
> When I do get sick, it feels relieving. Nothing is expected of me,
I
> get help and attention of others.
>
> Some of you may be shocked, but when I was thinking the other day
of
> what would truly make me happy; if I got to pick any scenario?
> I get diagnosed a terminal disease, I go to hospital, everyone who
> means something to me visits me, they all sit around my bed in
> hospital. Nothing is expected of me anymore because of my
condition,
> everyone forgives me, and feels pity for me. This goes on for a few
> days and then I die.
>
> I'd sign this right now.
>
> And this is just one of the issues......
>