Dear Joy
today I was obsessive by the clothes, I wanted to finish to iron but there was too many clothes
I was scared that if I won't do this all will be destroyed, I even don't know why I am scared so much
I feel I must finish it
I haven't finished, I was so tired that I simply could't do nothing
I let go now
I think that for me many things which are very easy for others are very difficult for me
this panick and obsession makes me tired and exhausted
I hope that the world won't be finished because of this

that's true that my childhood was a hell
and I am still in this hell, but now it is much better anyway

love
Dorota