Dear Joy
I have gone out for my weekend
I have spent a good time with my friends, maybe it's better to say I could spend very good time with my friends, but I am incapable to profit my time

this weekend I have realized how much I am ill
and that I don't really know how long I can live with it
I am so scared all the time


the message of hope is that I decided to do what I can even if it is almost nothing, because it is already very good to have good will and to try
it makes that I can feel much more safe with me

thanks
Dorota