Dear Dorota, Your share touched me a lot. I do tell myself at times that I have an illness just like the person who has diabetes,etc, except that this is mental. How could I not have problems with having been sexually abused for five years while growing up,etc. Its not my fault that I have this problem. I agree that I need to have more compassion for myself just like I would have compassion for anyone else who suffers this way. love in recovery,Joy