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Dear Joy,
for me it is so difficult too,
all my life I wanted to be perfect
and it was not possible for me to accept that there is something wrong with me
I needed to be strong
I am now 33 and I feel I have lost everything and it will never be better
now I learn to love me with my illness, and even because of my illness
I try to learn to don't want to be perfect
I try to learn to don't need to be perfect
when there is something about what I loose control; for example my thoughts, my obsessional behaviors, I simply try to feel compassion with myself
I talk to me, I tell me that I am very ill and that I understand how much I suffer and that if I could do something to make me better I would do it but I can't
sometimes the compassion is all that we can do
sometimes the compassion is all that we need
I think that that little girl within me won't be better until I give her my compassion
she wants to find somebody who can understand how much she suffers, because it shouldn't be forgotten
she wants to hear that she is ill, and because of this illness I will deal with her in a special manner
it means that I won't expect that she does things which are impossible for her; and that I will give her more love and more care
love
Dorota
for me it is so difficult too,
all my life I wanted to be perfect
and it was not possible for me to accept that there is something wrong with me
I needed to be strong
I am now 33 and I feel I have lost everything and it will never be better
now I learn to love me with my illness, and even because of my illness
I try to learn to don't want to be perfect
I try to learn to don't need to be perfect
when there is something about what I loose control; for example my thoughts, my obsessional behaviors, I simply try to feel compassion with myself
I talk to me, I tell me that I am very ill and that I understand how much I suffer and that if I could do something to make me better I would do it but I can't
sometimes the compassion is all that we can do
sometimes the compassion is all that we need
I think that that little girl within me won't be better until I give her my compassion
she wants to find somebody who can understand how much she suffers, because it shouldn't be forgotten
she wants to hear that she is ill, and because of this illness I will deal with her in a special manner
it means that I won't expect that she does things which are impossible for her; and that I will give her more love and more care
love
Dorota
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