Hi everybody
Hi Joy
there is nobody who write
but today I need to write

I am completely lost
the things are powerfull over me
I start to wash my clothes and I can't finish it because I think that maybe I HAVE TO also wash my coverlet, and my mattress etc
I start to cleen my room and I can't finish it because I HAVE TO do it perfectly, in every corner
I feel that I HAVE TO burn my personal notes, and I do that even if I am not sure of it, and after that I am scared that I did something wrong; and that I have lost something important

I have something to do and I NEED TO do it just now; I am scared that it is not done

I COULD NOT STOP

I COULD NOT WAIT

one thing that I can try to do that is to accept my illeness and to forgive me all that I do wrong because of it

have a nice day

Dorota