--- In Recovery-World- Al-Anon@yahoogro ups.com, "Jamie"
<jamielynn41@ ...> wrote:
>
> I am also married to an alcoholic, have been for 26 years and we have
4
> kids together. We just kinda ignore him around here and walk on egg
> shells and he goes away adventually. My kids aren't real little
either
> but they did see it growing up that I do feel awful about. He won't
> leave the house being he pays all the bills and I have no family or
> friends to turn too. I thought about the church but then he gets
really
> mad if I start spilling my gutts to other people,as a matter of fact
if
> he knew i was doing this he would have a fit.Well thanks for letting
me
> spill my guts.The only peace time I get is while he is at work during
> the week.Thanks again
>

Hi Jamie,
I remember the days of eggshell walking...My children also grew up
under circumstances I wish they had not.
Have you been able to reach anyone for counciling, or other means of
communication for support? It is so very important to be able to have
support.... girl my heart goes out to you...
He appears to be very controling, and demanding of you. I remember for
me, I was so lost because I had no outlet. There were no councilors
available in my area, I was socially dysfunctional, and could not reach
out to people of the church, afraid of criticism. I trusted no one...
at all... and certainly stemming from my other abuse issues previous to
my marriage of 25 years to the addict, I certainly could not speak or
rely on family... I was alone, and that was my greatest fear...
The only person I felt I could trust was God, I turned to Him, and kept
a journal of letters to Him...
He did answer prayers, and provided me with a good friend whom has
shared my burdens for 15+ years, and He certainly has me on a journey
of healing and dealing... lol...
Would love to chat more with you,
Hope that you are well, and finding peace...
Nolee