Hello. I am new to this group as well, and after reading your post,
I realized that I could have written those words myself. Like your
husband, mine has promised to "slow down" too, but not completely
stop drinking. I really do feel your pain. For us, the spouses of
alcoholics, slowing down will not do. We need an end to these crazy
episodes and that will only come with complete and total sobriety.
Nothing less. Like you, I am at my wits end and just do not know how
to deal with this anymore. All I can do is to try to find peace in
the many other great things I have in my life. I love my husband
dearly and continue to try to make things work. I hope some day we
can enjoy a life that is free from alcohol. I wish the same for you
and your spouse.

--- In Recovery-World-Al-Anon@yahoogroups.com, "justrubl"
<justrubl@...> wrote:
>
> Hi. My name is Kerri and I am at my wits end. My husband is an
> alcoholic and refuses to admit it. But he drinks so much that
most of
> the time he has to crawl instead of walk because he can't. I knew
when
> we met he drank, heavily, but I didn't know just how bad the
problem
> was until our wedding. We got married in Arizona at his parents
and
> when he is there he doesn't drink. We got there on Thursday and
got
> married Saturday afternoon. After the reception, about 10 minutes
> before we were goin to get in the car to drive to the hotel that
we
> were booked at before our early flight for our honeymoon, he had 2
> seizues and spent 3 days in the hospital in acute renal failure.
That
> didn't stop him, and as soon as he was home he started again. It
is
> getting worse and when he is drunk is is short tempered and mad.
I
> just don't know what to do anymore. He keeps saying he is going
to
> slow down, not stop but drink less, but he just drinks more. I
love
> him but I am at a loss for what to do.
>