garbage. I don't know how I am suppose to feel or act or be. I do
know that I truly love this man, well...the man I married, not this
lying, 2faced, thieving, do things behind my back piece of crap! Did
I mention LYING????? That is the part I just don't understand. How
can someone who is suppose to love you, look you right in the eye and
lie? He never missed work. He kept everything away from me so I
didn't see it. He always gave me money for the bills till maybe the
last month or so. And even then, he gave me some just not alot.
Told me work was slow. He came clean to me about 2 weeks ago and he
told me over the phone while I was on my way home from work. I
didn't hesitate at all. I immediately told him that I wanted him out
of the house by the time I got home. He then started going to AA/NA
meetings and moved in with his sponsor who happens to live about 4
blocks down my street. His sponsor told me he is doing real good.
He still comes to see me every day and still gives me a little money
for the bills but I won't let him come back home. Not yet. He isn't
ready. Hell, I don't even know when he will be ready but I do know
that he is working hard to beat this demon. He kicked it for 16yrs.
So I know he can do it again. He knows I love him but he also knows
that I am NOT putting up with that crap. Am I doing the right
thing? Am I being to easy on him by letting him come to the house to
see me and the dogs? I mean, this is his home too. But I don't want
to make it easy on him where he thinks he can get by with this. This
has really messed me up. I can't sleep or eat right. I either sleep
for days or not at all. I either eat everything I come in contact
with or not at all.
I tried to find a local meeting for me around here and the nearest
one I found is like almost an hour away. I live in a small town
between Cincinnati and Dayton, Ohio. If anyone is aware of any
meetings near my area, please let me know. Until then, I have you
guys now.
Vicki