HI,

MY HUSBAND IS AN ALCOHOLIC AND FLAT REFUESES HE IS. HE HAS BEEN TO
THE HOSPITAL 3 TIMES IN THE PAST TWO YEARS WITH A BLOOD ALCOHOL
BETTER THAN 3 TIMES THE LEGAL LIMIT. ONE OF THOSE TIMES HE WENT BY
AMBULANCE AND DIDN'T REMEMBER, EVEN WHEN HE GOT THE BILL.

WE ARE SEPARATED SINCE APRIL, I MOVED TO AN APARTMENT, HIM TO A
HOUSE AND WE ARE ABOUT TO LOOSE OUR OWN HOME TO FORECLOSURE. WE ALSO
HAVE A 21 YEAR OLD SON WHO IS A SENIOR IN COLLEGE. HE WANTS NOTHING
TO DO WITH HIS DAD.

MY PROBLEM: I STILL LOVE THIS MAN AND RUN WHEN HE NEEDS ME. HE
CUSSES AND VERBALLY ABUSES ME ALL THE TIME. HE HAS ALSO PHYSICALLY
ABUSED ME. I AM A STRONG WOMAN WHO BECOMES A BLUBBERING IDIOT WHEN
HE IS AROUND AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX THIS.

I DON'T WANT HIM BACK THE WAY HE IS, I WATCHED HIS BROTHER DIE 15
YEARS AGO, AND I'M WATCHING HIM DIE NOW. HIS MOTHER ALSO DIED OF
CIRRHOSIS AND HIS DAD DIED IN A BAR.

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE I CAN GO FOR SUPPORT WHERE THEY WILL
UNDERSTAND MY LOVE FOR HIM HASN'T CHANGED. I HATE THE THINGS HE
DOES, BUT I KNOW THAT IS NOT THE MAN I MARRIED. ALSO, I FEEL GUILTY.
HE HAS TOLD EVERYONE HE DRINKS BECAUSE I AM SO BAD TO HIM. HE
STARTED DRINKING AT AGE 10 BY THE WAY, I MET HIM WHEN HE WAS 19.

MY CHURCH KICKED ME OUT AND THAT IS WHERE MOST OF MY FRIEND WERE.
ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED.

THANKS