In a message dated 8/20/2005 1:58:02 AM Pacific Daylight Time, Jim wrote:

I have been asking that all important question so
much lately, WHY? Is this some cruel joke that is
happening to us?



Hi Jim and all...

I have been asking this same question over and over for so long...feels like
my life was sucked out of my body in just one botched surgery and things
just keep getting worse. I hope there is some hope for a cure soon, because I am
really disintegrating at a rapid rate. My move, #5 in less than a year-and-a
half, was a total nightmare. Without going into the morbid details, I ended
up spending most of the first week here in the ER on morphine and/or dilaudid
and never could get the pain level down below an 8. I also did some major
damage to my hip and lumbar discs and can't walk on my right leg, bend over, or
straighten my leg out. Can't remember a time I have been in more pain and
also have to unpack and find places for everything....lol...downsizing from a
house to a 500-square-foot *rabbit hutch* is not easy, even for someone who is
healthy. Anyway, it is really hard for me to sit for any period of time and
write now so gonna sign off now but just wanted ya all to know I did get moved
and am living back in the Bay Area finally, in San Jose, and finally got my
computer back online. Love ya all and prayers for painfree days and nights to
all....Carolyn

When I took the leap,
I had faith I would find a net;
Instead I learned I could fly.
- John Calvi, 1994



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