Recently an online questionnaire from AFFTR or some such letters asked such
specific questions about behavior and mood, it made me wonder what else they
know?

I ask because I disagree with most Neurologist who say your neural profile is
the sum total of your life. I think certain neural conditions provoke choice
sets and limit or direct responses to situations. I am sure of it because I have
a disabling case of a variety of neural diseases. I carried them almost all of
my life but only became aware of them as abnormal when I was 48.

When I was 44 my wife left me and I became a single parent with 4 kids, a few
years after mastering that in my heart I felt I would not recognize my old self.
Then I was hit by a car and required multiply surgeries. Years of pain changed
my brain again.

Is there a study of the psychological events that occur with disability? I feel
totally different inside. Learning to live as I am now, needing to spend days in
bed, unproductive, less attentive to my kids, unable to even consider a
relationship - I am 55 now but I was not like that 10 years ago.

I feel like Billy Pilgram, unstuck in my own mind. Al