Thank you everyone so much for your kind and encouraging words. You
guys have made my day!

--- In OrlandoFLHerpesSinglesSite@yahoogroups.com, "clap_laila"
<clap_laila@...> wrote:
>
> I was diagnosed about a year ago. I never thought this would happen
to
> me. I never slept around. I was never promiscuous. I have only had
two
> partners. I caught herpes from my ex-boyfriend. It's weird how this
> virus works. We were together for almost four years before I caught
it.
> He claimed he didn't know he had herpes but he later told me he had
> wahy he thinks was an outbreak when we first started dating and
never
> bothered to get it checked out by a doctor. As angry as I was with
him,
> I am twice as angry with myself. How could I have been so stupid?
Why
> did I not insist we both get tested before we had sex? I keep
asking
> myself this over and over. I know my health is my own
responsibility. I
> thought I was doing the right thing. Obviously not. I know it could
be
> a lot worse. It could have been HIV. At least herpes isn't fatal.
> People say time heals all wounds but I can't help but feel dirty. I
go
> out and meet new people but I feel like I have a dirty little
secret. I
> can't bring myself to be close to anyone for fear of rejection.
Does it
> ever get better?
>