It feels like a year since I`v written on this web.
Actually it`s more than Just A Web site.It`s a place of grace and apart of my
road to recovery,it opens doors.How cool is THAT?
Lately I`v been doing some real gut wrenching,soul breaking work.As I have
suffered a life threatening,possibly fatal relapse,after a 2yr recovery.I`m
56yr.
I am now willing to do whatever it takes to move forward into abstinence,and do
an Honest appraisal of myself.
Looking at the phenomenon of what happens after I use food like a drug is
amazing to me.In that I have NO human power to stop the cravings and purging
after I`m on the cycle.
With God 1st in my life I find myself on a new level of understanding that I can
arrest my illness by following a food plan,going to meetings,participating in
recovery phone meetings,spending alone time with my God,reading my
literature,meditating,writing,having fun time.So much more.Anyway these are the
things I know will bring me to peace,and an excitement about life (you).
I`m still going through withdrawal physically and emotionally.
But it`s O.K to just feel it and stay still.
No Matter Where Your At!You MATTER,Your Alive!
There is a Future and a Hope.With God there is a re-creating YOU.
love Bev