i am sorry! i amhere! wow. where have i been?? well for one, looking into
the diagnosis of another thing besides depression and e.d. i am not diagnosed
'it' yet and might share more when i see my therapist next week. i am sorry, i
will try and communicate more. my daughter is being kind of nice to me for two
days, a bit of peace i might say and i am trying to adapt to that.. it's weird
to think i have to adapt to this... what will i do? i am being quiet at
different times than before.. i am trying to listen to the words spoken and not
read into them so much.. something i may be famous for...
but i am still trying to be who i think i can be when i am being my best. that
means i am being 'the mom' as best i can. i have been told as my daughter so
kindly reminds me, that i have stopped growing or will not act past, the age of
about 15. we'll see. well, i have to drive someone somewhere, some where where
i won't be seeing them. yeah, it her that needs a ride. i am just relishing
being on the computer
whith her permission!!!!!!!!!!!!
so, off i am .. but i have not forgotten you. i am sorry i am so slack. if i
type fast i can finish up here.

i am stil having difficulties with food and diet.
but on monday i go to job training. and i'll have to eat enough or get sick
agian.
so i amtrying to do that now, ahead of time. i also don't want to get
'deyhdrated' it killed me last time i worked in a warehouse. off i go. love,
susan