--- In MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com, "susanmc333" <susanmc333@...>
wrote:
>
> --- In MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com, "steppingstones1954"
> <beverlycalobrace@> wrote:
> >
> > I took it upon myself to cut down my medications-due to
> > financial woes.I ran out completely and was experiencing withdrawal
> > symptoms to the point of verging on seizure mode.I had forgotten
> what
> > happened many years ago when I did have seizures for the same reason
> > and almost died.Thank GOD!!!just in time,the Dr. was gotten hold
> of,I
> > was able to get samples to tie me over.I learned a few
> lessons.
> > 1.DO.N`T MESS WITH YOUR MEDS-IT COULD BE
> FATAL
> > 2.SHARE WITH OTHERS WHAT YOU`R GOING
> > THROUGH,ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO
> MEDS.
> > 3.PUT YOUR HEALTH and
> > LIFE 1st-
>
> > 4.THERE`S ALWAYS A SOLUTION TO EVERY
> PROBLEM
> > I AM GRATEFUL TO MY LOVING
> GOD
> > -DOING RECOVERY WITH
> YOU....
> > LOVE BEV
> >
> dear Beverly,
> here i am reading your message and responding with similar victory.
> The words about meds, especially.
> I had been on a med and took myself from the 'highest dose' to being
> off it over a period of about 12 days. My blood pressure went up to
> the point where i was dizzy when i moved, especially when i like
> turned to the right.. I went to the amulatory care center and was
> told i needed an ear nose and throat doctor.. hmm, not.. i needed
> to go back on the med. i did, at a lower dose, from the hospital
> where my doctor put me.
> the dreadful thing is that they wanted to keep me there, but my
> insurance did not want me to be there long. i guess it is a good
> thing.. i came out feeling much better; just not as well as i wish i
> could.
> i seem to go a little down the road of recovery from stuff, and then
> i am back in it. when things don't change, i have a rebound of
> emotional effect and depression seems to keep me in a state that i
> have almost come to accept as my 'home'. i mean, i cannot change
> myself enough to claim a victory over it all, there has been no great
> movement.. but reading your post, as i said before, has given me food
> for thought. and i think , and even know, that food for thought,
> which one(s) are going in the right direction, can only mean one
> thing: improvement. THANK YOU!
>
> you aren't kidding about the meds. don't mess with them.
>
> my journey has been sporaticly improving. that is the way it is
> sometimes. it seems there are 'dry' spots, not much refreshing,
> personally. but then, it is not all about me. that's better than
> the thinking i used to do. before, all i thought about was how i
> would make it through the day. it's funny looking back at that, and
> it ought to be a spurring on- away from, as far as i can get-away
> from the very internally thinking which caused the passing of days in
> misery beyond what i have now, only because i thought that by
> ignoring myself, ignoring my needs, would i be able to withstand what
> i thought was a completely negative life, one without hope...
> there is scripture that tells that we need to feed a man, then tell
> him more.. food, funny as it may sound, has put my brain into a
> state of listening, taking in. no longer fighting and resisting
> every thought that would attempt to bring me out of darkness....
> oh, this is somehting i must be thankful for.. the thoughts of
> recovery. (someone is thinking of you.) and the taking on of
> recovery, because i have allowed my self to hear the words of someone
> who says that i matter..
> YOU MATTER! Beverly, you are important to me, an online group
> member, and you are important to others, and others... i want to
> feel that and to tell you the truth, i am positively able to write a
> postive post because i am inspired... now what am i going to do??
> if i don't get back online any time soon, because school is on and my
> daughter gets on, but not off often, i believe i have a job to do.
> keep recovering. like if it comes back, remember what i've heard
> here. letting words of recovery become something i embrace my own,
> more cheerful and more encuraged than ever about stuff.
> i would like to learn how to share my med issues with [even] one of
> my counselors because i do not talk about them with anyone. even the
> doctor for that med, he just re-prescribes it. there is no
> evaluating of the effects, positive or negative. it is, to me, just
> a 'given', that i will be on this med until "who knows when".
> so, like you said, talking about it is just plain making sense to me!
> p.s. sorry if this was a little confusing to read. rambling seemed
> to help me this a.m. cause i think it helped me get it out! love,
> susan
>
Dear Susanmc333....HI!!!it`s so wonderful to hear from
you....WOW!!!Sounds like your stepping up for yourself and that`s
awesome.when someone told me(in recovery)I mattered and was important,
it was music to my soul.Like you..I started to fight for my
recovery,which meant asking for what I need,not letting others impose
authority over me.I let them know whats going on in my life,how I`m
feeling..asking all kinds of questions.It`s my life and I have the
right to it.SO.....YOU GO GIRL....LOVE YA.I`M PROUD OF YOU....BEV