--- In MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com, "steppingstones1954"
<beverlycalobrace@...> wrote:
>
> I took it upon myself to cut down my medications-due to
> financial woes.I ran out completely and was experiencing withdrawal
> symptoms to the point of verging on seizure mode.I had forgotten
what
> happened many years ago when I did have seizures for the same reason
> and almost died.Thank GOD!!!just in time,the Dr. was gotten hold
of,I
> was able to get samples to tie me over.I learned a few
lessons.
> 1.DO.N`T MESS WITH YOUR MEDS-IT COULD BE
FATAL
> 2.SHARE WITH OTHERS WHAT YOU`R GOING
> THROUGH,ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO
MEDS.
> 3.PUT YOUR HEALTH and
> LIFE 1st-

> 4.THERE`S ALWAYS A SOLUTION TO EVERY
PROBLEM
> I AM GRATEFUL TO MY LOVING
GOD
> -DOING RECOVERY WITH
YOU....
> LOVE BEV
>
dear Beverly,
here i am reading your message and responding with similar victory.
The words about meds, especially.
I had been on a med and took myself from the 'highest dose' to being
off it over a period of about 12 days. My blood pressure went up to
the point where i was dizzy when i moved, especially when i like
turned to the right.. I went to the amulatory care center and was
told i needed an ear nose and throat doctor.. hmm, not.. i needed
to go back on the med. i did, at a lower dose, from the hospital
where my doctor put me.
the dreadful thing is that they wanted to keep me there, but my
insurance did not want me to be there long. i guess it is a good
thing.. i came out feeling much better; just not as well as i wish i
could.
i seem to go a little down the road of recovery from stuff, and then
i am back in it. when things don't change, i have a rebound of
emotional effect and depression seems to keep me in a state that i
have almost come to accept as my 'home'. i mean, i cannot change
myself enough to claim a victory over it all, there has been no great
movement.. but reading your post, as i said before, has given me food
for thought. and i think , and even know, that food for thought,
which one(s) are going in the right direction, can only mean one
thing: improvement. THANK YOU!

you aren't kidding about the meds. don't mess with them.

my journey has been sporaticly improving. that is the way it is
sometimes. it seems there are 'dry' spots, not much refreshing,
personally. but then, it is not all about me. that's better than
the thinking i used to do. before, all i thought about was how i
would make it through the day. it's funny looking back at that, and
it ought to be a spurring on- away from, as far as i can get-away
from the very internally thinking which caused the passing of days in
misery beyond what i have now, only because i thought that by
ignoring myself, ignoring my needs, would i be able to withstand what
i thought was a completely negative life, one without hope...
there is scripture that tells that we need to feed a man, then tell
him more.. food, funny as it may sound, has put my brain into a
state of listening, taking in. no longer fighting and resisting
every thought that would attempt to bring me out of darkness....
oh, this is somehting i must be thankful for.. the thoughts of
recovery. (someone is thinking of you.) and the taking on of
recovery, because i have allowed my self to hear the words of someone
who says that i matter..
YOU MATTER! Beverly, you are important to me, an online group
member, and you are important to others, and others... i want to
feel that and to tell you the truth, i am positively able to write a
postive post because i am inspired... now what am i going to do??
if i don't get back online any time soon, because school is on and my
daughter gets on, but not off often, i believe i have a job to do.
keep recovering. like if it comes back, remember what i've heard
here. letting words of recovery become something i embrace my own,
more cheerful and more encuraged than ever about stuff.
i would like to learn how to share my med issues with [even] one of
my counselors because i do not talk about them with anyone. even the
doctor for that med, he just re-prescribes it. there is no
evaluating of the effects, positive or negative. it is, to me, just
a 'given', that i will be on this med until "who knows when".
so, like you said, talking about it is just plain making sense to me!
p.s. sorry if this was a little confusing to read. rambling seemed
to help me this a.m. cause i think it helped me get it out! love,
susan