well, just needing to check in and talk a bit..
i have had trouble being online. the computer on the blitz.
etc.
a high for me was settling down and cooking today.
then i ate it.
soemthing that occured to me today was that i was lying in bed i
started to plan my purging of the cake i had. i had made a cake in the
microwave and it was eggless, so i could eat some. and i did. and
then i had to purge it away. it was only in my mind, i recognized it.
then i was planning it, how i would fast and be active.
i have recently told myself that i do not have an eating disorder. i
had a reality check when i thought this plan out in my time in rest.
i have to go to bed. i am tired. g'night.