Hi Melissa,

Well, don't worry about babbling on my account I tend to babble alot, lol.
Oh how I can relate to the distorted eyes off ED. I can also relate to not
having alot of support and feeling alone here (even though I have lived here
for about 5 years the only friends I have are my boyfriend, my cousin and a
few acquaintances). I am originally from Maine and the first time I sought
out treatment and recovery it was all based in Maine. So my whole support
system was based there. I never bothered to establish anything here in
Florida as I felt I was far enough along on the road to recovery and for
awhile I was.

After my Mom got over the initial blaming herself, telling me how selfish my
disease was, etc. She began to research ED's and what she could/couldn't do
and was a big support as well. She also came to admit that she herself had
an ED it was just the opposite of mine, she was a compulsive overeater. But
with her gone I am stuck with a family who doesn't understand my ED and who
has not caught on that I am relapsing (other then my cousin and best friend
Cheri) and who consequently I have not confided in because it would only
make matters worse.

One thing that I have found very helpful is that I contacted ANAD (anad.org)
and they found the closest support group to my area. I looked and I see they
have at least one group in the Jacksonville area so if you're interested
that is a good resource.

I think that finding a therapist locally would be a good idea, even if it is
not permanent at least it is a start and they may even be able to help you
find someone when you move.

I also have to add that I don't think training would be a very good idea
right now. Your question was if you could do this in a healthy way with
support but you've already mentioned that you don't have a support system in
place here. I challenge you to look at rather it is your mind or the ED that
is saying that training would be your therapy. OK well I've probably
rambeled on long enough and may be way off base, TTYL.

Ari

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