--- In MyEDHelpSupport@ yahoogroups. com, "beverlycalobrace"
<beverlycalobrace@ ...> wrote:
>
> A New
steppingstone. ....
> I used to get angry and resentful that my husband would silently
> not make decisions towards direction,paying
bills.....ect. .
> It created resentment,disappoi ntment,suspicion ,I
> suddenly realized he didnt have the capacity to function any other
> way.It was not only about him...I have my part in this also.Focusing
> on my own behaviors from my past,I understood how I used to
operate,I
> was terrified of responsibility, I ran from it in every direction.I
> choose others to take care of me,save me ect...The cost was great,I
> almost lost my life,I wouldnt let go of my ED.The good news.....I
> slowly crawled up onto my feet!I WAS STANDING UP....embracing
> life....WOW. ......I feel empowered,MY VOICE,self respect,And
> GRATITUDE... . I`m still a beginner...But I LOVE the
> results..... ..steppingstones Love BEV
>
dear beverly,
i have been reading your posts here and enjoying them. i like the
part about the standing on your feet, that you wrote here. i have a
problem with standing on my feet. i have this feeling like i do not
want to 'get down', out of my parent's arms.. and i am 50! i really
cannot put my feet down! i am so frightened! HOW did you start? i
think i will all of a sudden be put on my own (two feet) to stand,
and i will either 'sink or swim'. hmm. it causes me to feel relief,
thinking i don't have to stand on my own 2 feet. yet.
i just get excited about it and think i will not make it. i have
school to go to this fall, if i can.. i am thinking i will not be
able to do it. it should help me get out of the abusive situation i
am in. i just want to make it. i am thinking too much? sorry for
this sad sop message.