Hi Allison, oops, forgot to mention that I'm another Floridian=) However I
live on the opposite coast in Hudson. I definitely understand the
overexercising. Before I got into recovery last time I would run 10 or more
miles a day plus do crunches until I couldn't do them anymore. This time I
haven't sunk that far down, I exercise but only in moderation, I guess the
heat here in lovely Florida helps keep that at bay.

The first time I went into recovery was not so much a personal choice, even
though I was 18 my mother forced me into it, I was (and still am)a people
pleaser and so I did what she wanted. I joined a support group went to a
therapist etc. At first I was doing it only to placate her but as a few more
months went on I began to realize I really was sick and did have a problem
that I needed help for. Maybe I gave up on therapy a bit to soon because
looking back I realize maybe I wasn't as "recoverED" as I like to think.
Externally I was doing good, gaining weight eating and only purging
occasionally. And even though I had moments I could look in the mirror and
like what I saw the ED voice never truly went away. It was much tamer and I
could recognize that it was just ED talking but it never fully stopped.

Right now I waiver alot between being able to recognize I need help and then
totally dismissing it and telling myself I am fine. Except realistically I
know the latter is just ED telling me that. I guess what really scares me is
if I CAN really do it? I know I need to find healthier coping mechanisms but
I have no idea right now what those would be. OOOPS, my nephew is up from
hisnap. I'llwrite more later.

Ari


>From: "allisonbiszantz" <biszanta@...>
>Reply-To: MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com
>To: MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com
>Subject: [MyEDHelpSupport] Re: Hi
>Date: Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:37:01 -0000
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>Ari, Hi! What part of country are you in? My name is Allison, and I
>have exercise bulimia and an anorexic mindset. I am now at the point
>of recognizing that my latest attempts to exercise have been rather
>over doing it, and to stop again totally and just walk and so forth.
>Recovery is totally worth it. YOu get to have a 'life' again, when
>you are able to free yourself from the noise of the disorder, which
>can be so very loud. How did you initially get into recovery? I had
>more recovery than I do right now, but I have some really irritating
>health problems that are setting me back a little. So, I have to go
>sort of back to the drawing board. I have to try harder.
>Allison
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>-- In MyEDHelpSupport@yahoogroups.com, "Ari ..." <Soccerstar09@...>
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> > Hi, my name is Ariane (mostly go by Ari online though). I joined
>this site a
> > few weeks ago and just wanted to introduce myself. I am
>anorexic/bulimic, I
> > had been recoverED for about 4 years and then my Mom passed away.
>After
> > about 6 months I found myself turning back to my old coping
>mechanism of
> > anorexia and purging. I have been in a downward spiral for the last
>year or
> > so and am currently beginning the process of recovery again. I
>sought out a
> > support group several months ago and have just recently started
>seeing a
> > therapist again. The past few weeks I have been doing OK ed-wise
>but am
> > still struggling with the is recovery worth it thoughts. Even
>though I know
> > recovery is possible because I have done it before I am still
>struggling
> > about rather or not I can do this, or want to. Well that's just a
>lil about
> > me and my story. I have to get going but will write more later.
> >
> > Ari
> >
> > _________________________________________________________________
> > A place for moms to take a break!
> > http://www.reallivemoms.com?ocid=TXT_TAGHM&loc=us
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