Dear Ari: I am a recovering bulimic and all the above.I just wanted you
to know that there is someone out there who can empathize with you.My
sister had brain surgery early in this year,and it amazed me how it
brought our family running to support her.What really mattered the most
was not the little divisions in our relationships but how we love
,respect,honor each other. My father now has alhimerize>and its like
losing him too.It was difficult to deal with the emotions and fears that
surfaced in me.Thank God I was able to use therapy to deal with what
was coming up.The process is still in a grieving mode.It reminds me of
apart of my eating disorder,in that I was grieving all along in life.Im
still having a time of getting to meetings.Some one told me it doesnt
matter how I feel,Just get up and go,life has a way of working out if I
show up.I hope this doesnt annoy you,Ill keep you in my
prayers......Bev...my motto is turn your challenges,traumas into
steppingstones.
Hi Everyone, it's been so quiet around here lately. I know personally I
have been super crazy busy. The beginning of February my Dad came to
help do some remodeling work on our house and then after he had been
here his GF and my Aunt both came down too. It really wasn't as bad as I
had been anticipating other then we had to have a mini-family feud in
the middle because things weren't being done as fast as my Aunt wanted.
Because of weather they ended up staying an extra week and I was so
ready for them to go home.
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> Right now that all feels so trivial and so long ago, even though it
was barely a month ago. At the beginning of March Frankie, my
"grandfather", was in the hospital (after just getting out the first of
February) he had pneumonia, on top of his emphysema and COPD, He was
doing better for a few days after getting some IV antibiotics but then
grew even more ill. He was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure and
had a very bad night Wednesday (the 12th) and called us saying he didn't
think he was going to make it. He was having a severe panic attack and
we asked him what HE wanted, he said he wanted to come home, he just
wanted to come home. So first thing Thursday morning we checked him out.
He seemed to be doing better at home for a few days but then Sunday
night he had a very BAD night. His breathing was very labored and
congested, he had the "death rattle. After a very long emotional night
he settled down and on Monday he had improved somewhat. On Thursday we
started setting him up on hospice.
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> It has been a very long and emotional few weeks. My real grandfather
died when I was 15 and a year later Mamie meet Frankie. It took a few
years for us to accept him and him us (as he is not close with his
family and had no interest in having a family). Now that we love him and
accept him as a second grandfather he is dying. It's so hard to see him
like this so fragile and weak, but then he also has some good days that
give us a little hope. Of course my grandmother needs a lot of help to
care for him and luckily my father has flown back to help us. The whole
ordeal is very physically and emotionally exhausting.
>
> It's also a struggle to try to stay on track with my recovery at such
an emotionally taxing time. It's so hard with the emotions that this
brings up, someday's I do better then other. I'm just so drained and
exhausted trying to find the gumption to keep fighting takes even more
out of me. Well I have to get back to the grandparents house.
>
> Take care everyone,
> Ari
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