I guess you might be wondering what on earth does a cat have to do
with being bulimic and anorexic?Well I did some therapy on myself
concerning my dilemma.Moses my cat of 6yrs,who I rescued from an
abusive women when he was just a baby,has been attacking me.Last
Christmas he attacked me a few days before the holiday.I spent
Christmas Eve and day in the hospital,having contacted cat fever,it's
also called something else.It was extremely painful.Then he attacked
my leg again,but I got him off of me in time.I vowed I would train him
to stop,by spraying him with water.I had spray bottles all over the
house.After awhile he got the message,so I thought!after a month went
by he attacked my arm.Wouldnt you think I would have gotten rid of him
by now?Well...then I started looking at the dynamics of my eating
disorders.I was used to abusing my body in so many ways.I didn,t even
realize that this was another form of acting out.However I have been
not using food for some time,I wondered what was holding me back,was
it love?Was I playing victim again,which says to me love me,love me
over and over again at the cost of my life.Wasnt I important enough to
matter?maybe Ill disappear and no one will see the pain I carry.Or Ill
hide myself under layers of skin and still no one will know the pain
Im in.So that leaves me to...the obvious,Im in pain!I cant numb myself
out anymore the wounds are killing me,the scares are so deep.A
revelation came to me....GET RID OF THE CAT...