I don't know why I am suddenly pouring this out for the whole group
to read.. but somehow the timing seems right.. Not only have I this
operation on May 14th to get thru and heal from.. I am also currently
going thru the worst imaginal emotional pain right now.. You see my
older brother was murdered on Australia day this year.. 26th of Jan
03. We only found out his true fate on 12th March 2 days before his
34th bday would have been. To make matters worse not only did he take
the life of my only brother away from me he also threw his body into
a crock infested river so we don't even has his precious body to
bury. We cant have his death certificate until the murderers supreme
court case. His preliminary hearing is April 22nd ....the main trial
I guess will take place sometime later... praying to god its not
around my surgery so I have time to recover a bit before I have to
fly up north for the trial and then my special brothers memorial.
Everyone thinks their brother or sister is special of course.. but
mine is really truly very special to me.. you see he was involved in
an accident when he was only 18mths old which left him paralysed down
one side of his body.. his left arm and left leg. he spent 8 days in
a coma and the docs said he wouldn't make it.. and if he did he would
be a vegetable.. but he did make it.. then the docs said he would
never walk or talk.. by age 3 he was indeed walking and talking.. he
endured many many operations as he grew as they tried to work on his
leg and ankle (as he grew it became like a club foot which made it
harder for him to walk) He had no mental disabilities just physical
ones.. he went to a normal school and endured constant teasing and
bullying .. he also constantly spent his life proving people wrong
about what he could and couldn't do. He grew up to drive a car, hold
down a job. Unfortunately he never met that someone special to love
him intimately like everyone dreams of.. but he always had us.. his
strong loving family. His left arm from elbow down was never really
useable .. he had a weak claw like hand.. but the things he did to
over come all this would make us all cry and wish we had his
emotional strength.
I am sorry if anyone thinks my post is not appropriate for this
group, but I felt I had to share with you all the difficult time I am
facing. my operation to me right now seems like a huge inconvenience
to me especially if it affects my ability to fly up and be with my
family during this time. This time is like some unbelievable
nightmare that keeps getting worse. My brother was 20 months older
then me and my only sibling.. and whenever things got hard for me I
would always talk to my brother.. or think of him and how much harder
things were for him.. he gave me strength and inspiration. I guess I
wanted to share him with all of you..

Dy.