It helps me gain acdeptance to share my story with others. I hope
some members will appreciate my situation and write if you get a
chance. Here is the way I described it to a Nurse I met online:
Hi Nurse Jenny. I hope you will read this, even though I'm a guy.
It has to do with acceptance. I really like your profile...a cute
woman snug in her Molicares..ready for bed. It really is perfectly
natural. Bedwetting is normal as far as I can tell, and so is
wearing diapers.
Perhaps it is due to my childhood, but I am fascinated with others
who use diapers as adults, for whatever reason, and I find it
erotic. Bear with me and I'll try to explain. As I said in the first
email, I've always had a problem with wetting the bed. My mom and my
Auntie were pretty diaper oriented, and I often wore diapers to bed
even as a teen, and so did my sister and cousins too,at least later
than most kids..
There were defiantely some humiliating moments too. When I reached
mid 20's I became more relaxed about being a wetter...some of us
are, and some aren't. I lived in Seattle then and I began to wear
diapers in the daytime as well...only on occasion, because they were
handy, for movies, going to clubs, traveling, etc. and I had always
been prone to frequent pants-wetting anyway. Aside from being
convenient to avoid public bathrooms and accidents, I began to truly
need diapers...and I'll admit I started to enjoy the feeling. It was
kinda sensual, and a stress-relief, being snug in diapers. I was
conditioned from years of nightime use as well. It seemed natural
enough. And it became habit forming.
In the early 90's I was laid off and got umemployment for
awhile. I was kinda depressed and moped around the apt. It is the
first time I can remember being diapered full-time day and night
for a week or more. I saw a few movies, went out to some clubs at
night. I've always been discreet about it, like not walking around
with an obvious bulge in my pants if I can help it. There are ways
to dress accordingly, albeit a tell-tale crinkle for anyone with
good hearing. It wasn't really practical to wear full-time, and its
not now either, but I am self-employed which makes it easier. After
that first true week in diapers I can remember I decided to quit,
and all that first day I had a constant urge to urinate, needing to
wet my pants. I'd go to the toilet and only pee a little bit. It was
as if my body got acustomed to diapers...like my bladder said 'ok,
no need to hold it as long so I'll shrink a bit'. I'd be out
somewhere thinking "I wish I had a diaper on". Being a nurse I
figured you'd appreciate this. My mom's a nurse too.
Anyway, since then I've gone thru phases when I'll be wearing day-
diapers alot. I've gone thru periods of as much as a month - usually
in winter - wearing 24/7. During those long spells a sort of trained
incontinence developes, which is reversable but it takes awhile. The
first few days out of diapers is a strange feeling of a constant
urge to void, and accident if one is not careful. It is fascinating
in a way...sensual and erotic in another way. To need diapers in
this way. After llong usage i feel naked without them.
One night I brought a woman home from a dance club to my place.
Instead of ditching the wet nappy in the bathroom like I would
normally do, I left it on. My heart beat a little faster. As I look
back it was probably a desire for acceptance. I had some definate
sexual humiliation due to diapers, especially as an early teen.
Being teased. Being among other kids who were long done with
diapers. Anyway we got to pawing at each other and she said "Oh my
God. Are you wearing a DIAPER?!!" I tried to pass it of casually..'I
wear them at night...lifelong bedwetter, etc. sometimes I forget to
take them off, or put one on early by accident'. We chatted a bit. I
hoped she would understand, but really she freaked 'cause she had
realized that not only was that a diaper she found, but it was
soaked and heavy.
Well, she told her girlfriends and I was totally humiliated. I
tried to stop wearing, at least during the day, and I did for
awhile. But by that point i was pretty well emotionally if not
physically dependant, and within a month I was back wearing Attends
more than ever. I soon accumulated a large assortment of plastic and
rubber incontinence briefs for better security in public.
It's funny, it sounds like a heroin habit or something. You know,
come to think of it, there are worse things than needing diapers.
I'm not a pervert. I don't do anyone wrong..just live by the golden
rule(no pun intended). I hope I haven't bored you to tears, or that
you did not delete this right off the bat. It helps me to share
these ideas with someone, especially a cute nurse. When I find
people online who wear diapers for whatever reasons its reaffirming.
Before the internet it was dificult to find people(especially a
woman) who could understand and be accepting. I'll make a copy of
this so I can share it with others. I just had a need to write it
all down and make some sense of it. Funny that your profile in
particular was what got me going on this. It made me feel good to
see you standing by the sink, diapered for bed. More power to ya.
Please write. Don